I think I have had depression/anxiety for 4-5 years now.
long story but it stems apparently from my environment.
the father of my child has been emotionally abusive for the last 5 years and I think it's taken its toll on me.
i don't feel like the person I was before, which was a really happy bubbly person with lots of friends and very sociable.
i feel like I have become very sinical and in social able.
I have no patience anymore and I'm scared of everything.
i never socialise anymore and I have to convince myself to go to work when I feel like just giving up on everything.
i have my own small business which I started when I broke up with my sons dad 3-4 years ago.
i don't feel like I deserve to be happy and be in a new relationship.
i know this is bad to by feeling like this and I do see a psychologist.
but I really don't tell her exactly how I feel.
i worry about everything and feel ashamed to say I am a single mum as I feel like a failure.
im embarrassed that not married and I'm currently living with my parents.
i cant believe my life has turned out like this.
i know my life is not as bad as other people's but my mind just cannot accept or change the horrible way I feel all the time.
so my question is should I take medication?
i have tried it before and it was working but I got ringing of the ears which I still have so scared to take medication again.
plus i have tried so many and the only ones that worked gave me tinnitus.
help!!
