Backed myself into a corner
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I've been off meds for BADII for over 7 months and have been doing really well on natural and nutritional therapy, until now. Problem is, I have been off work with the flu (and now struggling to meet deadlines), have found out my knee surgery was bot... View more
I've been off meds for BADII for over 7 months and have been doing really well on natural and nutritional therapy, until now. Problem is, I have been off work with the flu (and now struggling to meet deadlines), have found out my knee surgery was botched and can't be fixed, have chronic health problems that are wearing me down and now, have been diagnosed with arthritis (explains why I have chronic pain and can't sleep). I was so determined to stay well through healthy diet, exercise, meditation and alternative health supplements that my stubborn side can't even contemplate defeat. But, the dark thoughts come crashing down and there's nothing I seem to be able to do to control them. On the surface, I'm the most together, organised person you will ever meet! Family and friends are none the wiser, but bubbling and boiling beneath is what I recognise to be a path to rapid self-destruction. I was just so convinced that toxic medication could be replaced by lifestyle change etc. and don't want to concede or dare I say, admit defeat to those who will say, 'told you so!'