To preface, I am suspected ADHD, potential narcolepsy but that's in the
air. The psychiatrist I saw was very helpful, overall kind and took
action, but conservative with the prescriptions (greatly appreciated).
I've taken a narcolepsy medication for ...
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To preface, I am suspected ADHD, potential narcolepsy but that's in the
air. The psychiatrist I saw was very helpful, overall kind and took
action, but conservative with the prescriptions (greatly appreciated).
I've taken a narcolepsy medication for a few years but it's too
expensive without the narcolepsy diagnosis (which was too expensive to
get). Regardless, I was having issues more akin to ADHD at that time,
and this medication didn't necessarily help with the psychological
aspect, apart from overall more stable, elevated, and less agitated mood
(all very appreciated). But, like I said, too expensive and
circumstances would have it that I can't keep it up. The psychiatrist
trialed me on a stim and I was a little baffled. The first day I don't
think I took enough and felt entirely unmedicated (lethargic, irritable,
unfocused, in about 10 hours with the laptop open I wrote maybe 7
footnotes on a complete essay body). The next day I took more (still
recommended dose) and I certainly wasn't energetic and probably could
have laid down for a nap if I'd had the time, but I could tell within
maybe 20mins of taking it that the stinging sleepiness in my eyes (had
just started after being awake for 2 hours) just kind of receded.
Thought my heart rate went up for a second but it may have been
psychosomatic. I didn't feel super motivated or productive but I did the
work bc I knew it would pay off (never done this before). I was bored
but didn't get up and rummage through everything. I also didn't have any
change to appetite, though the sugar craving reduced slightly (I ate
bread instead, yum). Most of all I was less distracted, I actually said
to someone "I don't have a song playing in my head right now, I've never
not had that" (promptly told to get over myself), and around 4 hours
after taking it I knew it had left the system bc it struck me I had been
discussing life in my own head with the imaginary Dr for a solid ten
minutes. I don't know what I expected but it wasn't that. I didn't feel
like my mood was elevated (beyond not being miserably anxious/tired,
which was pretty good), and I definitely didn't feel energetic, racing,
super productive, or wired. I felt less wired, and overall very Average.
Is this a good thing? I don't want to lose "me", though I did also take
it at times when I had to sit in a spot and work the whole day, so there
was very little chatting or movement which may change things. So I'm
unsure, and not certain as to which worked better.