hi all, i’m needing some advice about my psychologist/what to do (i’m
so, so sorry this is long). i’ve had depression my whole life and more
recently social anxiety. I'm 24, have seen a few psychs, one quite long
term but never really felt any progre...
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hi all, i’m needing some advice about my psychologist/what to do (i’m
so, so sorry this is long). i’ve had depression my whole life and more
recently social anxiety. I'm 24, have seen a few psychs, one quite long
term but never really felt any progress and wasn't fully comfortable
talking to her so stopped seeing her. then i stopped seeing anyone and
was fine until i became really low. i started seeing a new psych who is
totally different (i felt really guilty about switching because i'm so
self conscious about cutting people out-I’ve had some fairly bad
friendships and a lot of insecurities w friends). at first w the new
psych it was abit unnatural because we're so different (i’m introverted,
really struggle with low self esteem, she’s quite extroverted) but i
think I was feeling better than I'd felt before (mostly day after the
appt). i’ve been seeing her a few months and it’s been good, i’ve opened
up about alot which i generally find really difficult and she gives me
things to read/do btw appts which i like and hadn't had. i don’t know
how how much she understands how i’m going. she often reacts like she is
confused by what im saying happens in my mind and i dont know if that is
purposeful to make me realise how silly they are or if she just doesnt
realise how confused/slightly judgemental (?) her reactions seem to me.
once i was abit open about a time her reaction made me feel
uncomfortable/judged, which she seemed to appreciate. so i’m basically
trying to figure out how much of this discomfort is a bit normal, from
sharing my biggest insecurity esp considering my huge issues w trust,
and how much (if any) is that she didn’t react in a very
supprtive/helpful way?I don’t know when I should be concerned about how
often i am going away from appts feeling judged/slightly worse than when
i went into the appt? I get really scared that I just have way too much
insecurity to talk to a psychologist without hating myself in or after
appointments, so who on earth am I ever going to trust/how am I ever
going to improve my messed up mind?