Hi, welcome
I can hear my mother now some 60 years ago- "Tony, have some patience". Since then I've figured out that patience isnt available to buy, they dont fill supermarket shelves with them.
So at 68yo I'm still impatient, always punctual etc. So aging only has had a mark on my patience, I'm more relaxed now. So how can you have expectations of being patient when you dont have patience?. Furthermore if you work then exhaustion can be a weight you carry around with yourself. I think the message here in my post is to pat yourself on the back, begin to like yourself and believe in yourself that your best is indeed good enough.
Being kind to yourself could include some window shopping, a sport or just sharing a coffee with a friend at a cafe. It could be a shorter visit to your mum if she is in care. If you care for her at home then coping is extremely challenging. A visit to your GP might qualify you for 10 free mental health visits to a professional, I've done it 3 times now and its invaluable to get a handle on things.
I cant think of anything else but I do hoipe your mum will have the best of care and be proud you are coping like you are. Here is a little gift, reply anytime you wonderful soul.
Mum knew you’d want to follow
Where ever she went in her footsteps
Through your pride and loving blur
you always tried to follow her
And on Sundays a few hours spare
you be her shadow for the day to care
Girl behind her mum so tall
But she didn’t mind-didn’t mind at all.
Then as awareness cut so short
you wish to follow as your last resort
No wonder she used a broom to sweep
To hide her footstep stencilled feet
But now and then you'll see a print
Where she’s been aware in the misty tint
Like a ghostly outline of a sole
I place your foot inside the hole
Sadness will follow in your inept
It’s just something you must accept
But you will be eager the day your feet will greet
Your mother's footstep stencilled feet….
TonyWK
