Tired of fighting this battle.

[Beaser]

I hope im ok to post as ive posted so often on other  forums  but im feeling very desperate lately. 

Im just so tired of fighting. I left a job i was in for many years last year. I have since had some part time work that didnt work out.  Im lonely and going broke.  I was desperate and called triple o last week only to be left to my own devices again. I may be going into a facility called parc a non acute inpatient service but that thought scares me. I dont know how much more i can endure. I hope every one is well and thank you for reading      Brett

[Beaser]

Hi and thanks for reading. 

I didnt have the best weekend .       If im honest im just so lonely at the moment .  I live alone and i find myself just wanting to get to my local hotel just  to be around people.  I know that maybe doesnt sound good but what am i supposed to do as i crave for human contact . I know that its maybe not the healthiest way to spend my time and can contribute to my anxiety and depression .     

Just feel so lonely at the moment and reaching out.  

My best wishes to everyone.

Beaser 

[Eagle Ray]

Hello Beaser,

Sorry, I missed this message from a couple of weeks ago. I do know what you mean about going somewhere to be around people. I have gone to a cafe to do that. I’m wondering if there are any groups around an interest you would like to join?

How are you feeling now anyway? I do understand about the loneliness and I have really been feeling it lately. Though I’m doing a bit better this week as I’m visiting the city and getting to catch up with a few people which makes such a difference to me. I’ve realised I’m very lonely in my town and planning to try to move back to the city where there are more people for me to connect with.

It isn’t the easiest time of year for loneliness either. I started a thread in the BB social section for those who are alone at Christmas which you are welcome to join if you would like.

Sending you a big hug,

ER

[Beaser]

Hi ER

Thank you for your kind reply always good to hear from you.

I hope you are going ok and im sorry that you have been lonely yourself lately. 

I have been ok mostly since my past probably up and down i guess. 

I agree about the groups being a good thing.  Im a volunteer and long time member at my local football club its a great thing in the season but yeh it is a bit of a downer when it finishes. 

I have some friends who i see regularly on the weekends so that helps.  

I hope your having a good weekend.     I will try and find your page in the social zone.    

My best wishes       Beaser

[Eagle Ray]

Hi Beaser,

Just checking in to see how you’re going? I know you mentioned on another thread that you’ve had a rough start to the year. I hope you’re doing ok and that you’ve found some good support.

Feel free to chat anytime if it’s helpful.

Take care,

Eagle Ray

[Beaser]

Hi ER and thank you.

Its been a pretty tough time of late if im honest. 

I went to centrelink yesterday as my DR  has written me a medical certificate so i can claim jobseeker with a medical exemption.   Im scared as i dont know what expect  and i couldnt handle any pressure from it. 

Ive been getting some advice from my sister about it so thats been a comfort. 

I also just realized i was a bit worse of financially than i thought as i misunderstood my redraw  situation.

I am trying to be relaxed in the fact that i am the way i am with anxiety and catastrophizing and fire PTSD and i shouldnt feel guilt.

On a happier note we got some good rain here yesterday as its been so dry.  I  hope youre going ok im really grateful for you checking in. 

Always good to hear from you and others      ER. 

[Eagle Ray]

Dear Beaser,

I’m really sorry you’re going through a tough time but so glad you’re getting some support. I’ve had Centrelink medical exemptions before. I’m really glad your doctor wrote one for you. If it’s the usual process Centrelink assess it and will give you an outcome. Please don’t worry and focus on looking after yourself. It took me a long time to ask for the help I needed and to ask for an exemption which for me was first back in 2022. What it does tell Centrelink is you’re having a tough time and it’s good for them to know.

I’m glad you have the support of your sister. You absolutely don’t need to feel any guilt at all. I remember I felt guilty too when first asking for help. But it’s actually where you are at and that’s really ok. In my experience so far I’ve learned anxiety and PTSD are processes that have gotten stuck in the nervous system. Over time with the right support they can gradually start releasing. But we need support in that process and to find ways that minimise stress and maximise things that are healing for us.

I'm really glad you had the good rain. It's lovely isn't it. Today I went for a walk in the late afternoon and it was interesting because the sun was shining on me but I was getting sprinkled on by rain at the same time. It was quite lovely.

Take good care and big hugs to you Beaser,

ER

[Beaser]

Thanks ER

I really appreciate from you. 

I have my centrelink phone interview today so i will just have to see how it goes,    At the very least i should qualify for a low income card.  Im nervous but hopefull.

I hope you are going along ok yourself ill keep posting here about how it goes.    Its a good way to express myself.     

Hoping your have a Happy and Healthy day.     Beaser

[Eagle Ray]

Dear Beaser,

Do let the Centrelink person know that you’re having a really tough time. I used to minimise things and present as more ok than I was for many years of my life and I’m only just learning to really let people know if I’m not going ok. Feel free to ask the Centrelink person questions too if you have any. I will be thinking of you and I hope it’s a good discussion and that they give you helpful information and options.

Yes, feel free to keep posting here and communicate how you’re going. 

A big hug and all the very best,

ER

[Beaser]

Hi ER and thanks again for getting back to me.

Things went surprisingly well yesterday with my phone appt.    She was a pleasant lady and asked me what seemed like very generic questions.   She asked about my ability to work and travel and i polightly explained that i felt it was beyond me ATM.  She said to keep a close eye  on my inbox.  I checked it and was pleasantly surprised to see it had been approved. It was a  relief .   I just have the standard reporting duties each fortnight which is fair enough.

Thank you again and i totally agree its important to be honest about how we are feeling.

Best wishes for a good day for you ER  Ill keep posting about things. 

Beaser

[Eagle Ray]

Dear Beaser,

I’m really glad it was approved. It gives you a chance to just focus on your well being. I remember I found getting an exemption very helpful as it took off any pressure and I could feel myself improving.

Best wishes to you too Beaser and, yes, by all means keep in touch and let us know how you’re going,

ER