FACTS- 75% of suicides are male, suicide is the leading cause of death between ages 15-44yo, suicides yearly is more than double the road toll and on average 135 people are effected by one suicide.
You are 17 times more likely to suicide if bipolar. Research suggests up to 20%Trusted Source of people with bipolar disorder, especially when untreated, die by suicide. A larger percentage, around 20% to 60%, attempt suicide at least once during their life and (from "Healthline").
Talking for myself- I've had one attempt but I want to talk about the few minutes prior to that objective. That feeling comes regularly, say twice a year. It is preceded by a trauma of some description, an argument, a socially embarrassing situation or less often, a tragedy like whale beaching or human suffering. Those are my triggers. When younger it could have included- financial hopelessness or excess criticism of my mother (estranged now since 2010) or bullying.
Every person with bipolar suffers differently and I also have dysthymia and that is relevant as my childhood trauma has resulted in extreme sensitivity not dissimilar to HSP (highly sensitive person of which up to 20% of people are).
Remember that this feeling will pass and to help it pass, MOVE! walk around the block, pick up a ball, play with your dog. 2/ ring lifeline 131114 or Beyond blue 1300 224 636 , talk.
I know how you feel, my job here today is to convey to you that I understand that feeling and I'm begging you to reach out. I would highly recommend the following thread- just read the first post. It's a thread I wrote many years ago of radical actions because in the face of suicide becoming a possibility, we should do anything to divert it.
forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/staying-well/when-all-is-lost-what-can-you-do-be-radical/td-p/47450
TonyWK
