I’m just so tired. For a long time I’ve been feeling like I have this dark cloud over me and all I see and feel it’s low. To give an insight it’s like all I see is a world in black and white while everyone sees rainbows. My boyfriend of 5 years doesn’t see me hurting, miserable as and broken. I try to let him in and express how I feel but he just shuts me down, tells me to go see someone and that’s it. Yet with everyone else he’s there listening to them, being a shoulder etc. His dad passed away just recently and I’ve been there for him, he pushes me away but wants everyone else to be his shoulder. His mum blamed everything on me with him doing drugs, not going to work etc. When he was drunk and saying he doesn’t want to
be here she blamed me. She said when I feel “fed up” I’m doing it for attention. I need some help as I just can’t keep going like this and feeling so down. I’m tired of putting on a happy face now
