I gave in today. I just can't deal any more.

[coco1691]

My aunt just passed away unexpectedly and im holding everyone up and being the strong one.
The guy who's my best friend who has bpd and also self harms needs space because I broke his heart.
I just got my steam account hacked and $1250 worth of items I'll never get back and posting on reddit got me abused.
People who ive been there for and helped haven't even offered a message or anything.
My neighbours are suing over the fence they destroyed.
My mother is physically sick and im desperately so worried.
My nan is getting so thin due to not eating at 85 from her sisters death.
I have borderline personality and now my new psychiatrist thinks I have adhd.
I feel so alone. I just want my items back but steam won't do anything eventhough the accounts have bot#53 in their names. I worked on getting that limited edition stuff for 10 years.
I'm so devastated. I can't bring my aunt back nor my friend so at least give me my items I paid for.
I've been laying in bed for hours and I ended up self harming. I just feel so alone and need help but when I reached for it I got bad mouthed.

[Sophie_M]

Hey coco1691,

We're so sorry to hear how ovewhelming things are feeling for you right now, but you've shown so much courage in reaching out to our community, and taking such an important step in sharing your journey with us here. We're so sorry to hear that you've been struggling with self-harm, and intense thoughts and feelings that must be so difficult to cope with. We hope that you find these forums to be a safe space to express your thoughts and feelings, and our caring community is here to help offer support and advice during this really difficult time.

We are also currently getting in touch with you through email as we are worried about you.

In overwhelming moments like these, please know support is always help available to you, whether it be from the friendly counsellors at our Beyond Blue Support Service (1300 22 4636) or our friends at Lifeline (13 11 14) or the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467). These services are always here for you 24/7, day or night, and you can access them as often as you need whenever things are feeling like too much to cope with. You never have to go through this alone.

If you feel unsafe or feel you are in immediate danger to yourself, this is an emergency it's really important that you contact 000 straightaway.

We really hope that you can find some comfort and support in the kind and understanding words from our community, and please feel free to keep updating us on what you're feeling and experiencing whenever you are ready.

[smallwolf]

hi coco.

how long have you been around the forums. I noticed your post count so guess you have been around here for a short while.

there is a lot going on in your life at the moment and which you little if any control over and sh became your circuit breaker with everything going on. At the same time you have been able to post here and open up on what is going on for you and with succinctness that is beyond me.

does writing help you cope with what is going on in your life?

Other than talking to my psychologist on a regular basis, I am also lucky to (sometimes) being able to talk to someone to process what I am going through. If I am unable to reach this person, which is fair chunk of time, writing down what I am going through enables me to use a notepad as a sounding board in a more objective way. Well, at least that works for me. And posting here... when I first came here and wrote what was on my mind, people responded with support and without judgement, validating how I was feeling.

I probably have not said anything helpful to you except that I want you to know that I am listening. Out of all the things you mentioned in the your post, not sure which one most important to you or what you might want to chat about, but I am around and will pop in ...

[MetaGirl]

Hey Coco,

I'm ADHD, how are you since you posted?

MG