*Trigger warning* Eating for Health and Wellness

[Guest_1055]

I have been struggling eating and eating healthy foods over the last couple of weeks. I really do not want to go back further to how I use to eat, that is eating junk food, takeaways, copious amounts of chocolate, processed junk and comfort eating.

Finding it challenging to stay motivated to actually prepare what I know helps me feel better mentally, emotionally and physically. Plus I have been feeling overwhelmed with other stuff happening in my life, which somehow makes it more challenging. The old unhealthy comfort eating thing is coming back. And I think I am getting concerned and scared about that. I so much do not want to go back to how I use to be. I was so sick. Plus I now have some physical things not right in my body , so I need to be more careful and mindful of what I eat. ( Pre cancer cells , high blood pressure )

I was eating really well since Febuary of this year, it’s just the last couple of weeks I haven’t.

So I would like to use this thread to help me be accountable to Beyond Blue people. So like a diary where I can post and report what I eat. And also any healthy eating tips, motivating strategies to help eat better or anything related to healthy eating for our bodies including our mental health.

[monkey_magic]

Hi everyone,

Gosh you are so good a lot of the time Shell. I should get into some healthy juices as well. My go to is usually a banana or berry milkshake but I know I can add more nutrition into things.

I used to eat so much I'd feel ashamed as well. Just a few weeks ago I splurged at Macca's but it was soooo good. I comfort ate my way through a meal and two deserts.

I like reading what U eat. I draw inspiration from it.

[Guest_1055]

Hey MM, I did reply to you. Hasn't come through as yet

[Guest_1055]

Because my sleeping is all over the place, my first meal of the day was a soup. I did have cravings for hot takeaway potato chips. Because it was raining, chilly and I felt like a warming comforting hug. That is what hot chips feel like to me. A comforting hug.

Anyway I did not go out and buy takeaway chips. Properly made it easier to not go out instantly as I would have needed to get dressed for the day. I made soup. Its warm. And I put potato in it. It also had, onion, carrot, spinach, red spilt lentils, garlic powder, cumin, paprika and vegan "beef" stock.
I have also had 2 medjool dates and a mug of hibiscus tea.

This afternoon I did not do too good. I binged on copious amount of chocolate again. Drove up to the shop and bought it. Now I feel regretful 😭.

[Guest_1055]

Tonight I made another juice and some more grapes for dinner.

Juice had carrot, cucumber, celery, beetroot, apple and lemon.

Hey MM, I am sorry I still don't know where my reply to you is. Must be held up for some reason.

I shall write another....

Hope you are getting on ok. The ashamed feeling is an awful feeling to feel. For me I am fearful of being judged and perhaps fearful of rejection and what other people may think of me.

Banana or a Berry milkshake sound quite nice. You could add baby spinach to them, if you are using a blender. You can't really taste it.

[Guest_1055]

Binge eating today. Finding it hard to stop😭

[josh1245]

hey shelll is there any feelings that you are feeling that are you making you binge eating I would like to help if I can.

regards josh.

[Guest_1055]

Hey Josh, that is kind of you.

Do you have a eating disorder, comfort eat, food addiction or anything related?

I have been taking note of how I am feeling. I eat quite well when everything in life is going ok. But currently I have been feeling sad and some sorrow. Sorrow in regards to someone else who is going through such a hard time at the moment. I feel for her, so much. My heart aches.

Loneliness and an alone feeling is another feeling I have been experiencing. An empty feeling. And I know I try to stuff myself with junk food to fill this empty. So short lived.

Then I start to feel discouraged, shame and disappointed in myself because of the choices I make in regards to scoffing down junk.

I go ok for a while eating very healthy and don't eat too much. Then some emotional issue arises that I simply cannot deal with. I soon eat refined sugar junk stuff, my body wants more and more as the days go on. Then the cycle just repeats itself.

I am so sick of it.. I just want to be free.

Anyway thanks Josh for wanting to help. Even you hearing me and offering helps

Shell

[Leisa68]

Hi Shell

I binge eat too. Particularly when I am feeling bad about myself. My poison is pizza. I understand when you say it feels like a comforting hug. I understand what you are feeling.

Sometimes to help myself I look up the calories of the foods that I want to eat online just to remind myself that I am taking a huge amount of calories in. Then I ask myself ïs it worth it" I will feel like crap tomorrow: etc. This does not always work and will still indulge. I agree with the other members, you are trying very hard to help yourself.

I guess the other thing is the medications we have to have. Shell you may not take meds, but all medication that is prescribed for us are all weight gaining. I am on many weight gaining medications for my BiPolar disorder, plus I have Peripheral Neuropathy. All of these medication prescribed for these conditions have side effects of weight gaining.

Please keep trying. Life ebbs and flows. I myself have to come to terms as a middle-aged woman that my body is different. It's a hard thing to do! I also have to learn that I cannot worry what others think. Another hard thing to do!

I wish you all the best for you to find personal happiness.

Kindest Regards

Leisa68

[Guest_1055]

Well I did eat some healthy things today. Some chickpea frittata and a quinoa type salad. Plus I made myself another fresh juice. The juice had celery, cucumber, mixed green leaves, lime, apple and pineapple.

The rest of the day was not that good. Awful. 😭Binged quite a lot on junkfood. I am going to say what it was that I scoffed down. Well because I don't want fear, the fear of being rejected to grow bigger in my life. So taking a risk I guess. I fear whoever reads this will think less of me or something like that.

I ate 1 65gram bar of vegan chocolate from the organic store. Then about 1 hour later hid in the car and ate 1 cream bun. Just before I bought the cream bun, I purchased a few things from the supermarket. When I got home and in my room, I ate 1/2 large bag of salted potato chips. 1 bag of malteesers.

I made a litre of fresh juice just so I would flood my body with nutrients.

How I feel now about the food thing... Regretful and disappointed in myself.

[monkey_magic]

Hey Shell,

Love that you flood your body with all the nutrients and your binge eating escapade sounds yum.

I guess the main thing is your feelings of regret and disappointment.

We can't be good all time.

Tomorrow is a new day so U can pick yourself up and start again. I would have 1 or 2 bad things a day though. I think we need to, to feel human.

I hope ur ok 🙂