*Trigger warning* Eating for Health and Wellness

[Guest_1055]

I have been struggling eating and eating healthy foods over the last couple of weeks. I really do not want to go back further to how I use to eat, that is eating junk food, takeaways, copious amounts of chocolate, processed junk and comfort eating.

Finding it challenging to stay motivated to actually prepare what I know helps me feel better mentally, emotionally and physically. Plus I have been feeling overwhelmed with other stuff happening in my life, which somehow makes it more challenging. The old unhealthy comfort eating thing is coming back. And I think I am getting concerned and scared about that. I so much do not want to go back to how I use to be. I was so sick. Plus I now have some physical things not right in my body , so I need to be more careful and mindful of what I eat. ( Pre cancer cells , high blood pressure )

I was eating really well since Febuary of this year, it’s just the last couple of weeks I haven’t.

So I would like to use this thread to help me be accountable to Beyond Blue people. So like a diary where I can post and report what I eat. And also any healthy eating tips, motivating strategies to help eat better or anything related to healthy eating for our bodies including our mental health.

[Guest_1055]

That's great you can sleep better Sleepy. I have never been into meds. I grew up not taking any, maybe a panadol a couple of times a year for a headache or something. My dear mum was very natural herself. So yeah. I am thankful she was and still is like that.

[monkey_magic]

I'm upset and angry. I'm trying my damnest to lose weight and unless I'm hungry and starving I don't lose. Why is it so difficult. I don't want to fail my weight loss comp but the scales not moving despite my trying.

[golden82]

Hi MM, try not to worry and be hard on yourself. You are doing great. Even if the scales don't reflect that. You are choosing good food and eating thru the day to give yourself energy. There are so many reasons for the scales not showing us what we want.. you probably know them, fluid retention, hormones, meds, lack of sleep, stress it goes on and on. Just keep on and try do some stress relieving things u like.

I find if i focus on my weight, i get depressed and binge eat. If i try not to think about it so much, and try be calmer, then i tend to get thru the days less likely to binge. Not that u are binge eating, but i think just try focus on other things. Sorry i have not made my point well, it is hard in written words.

I hope u feel good about yourself regardless MM and manage to enjoy the rest of the day 🙂

[monkey_magic]

Hi Golden,

I am focusing on the scales and my weight and getting depressed, I even cried about it.

I just really want to succeed my weight loss comp and the scale isn't moving. I eat really healthy and have lately been going hungry. I'm getting so annoyed and frustrated and hate my body.

Ill forget about it and enjoy my day I just want it so bad.

[golden82]

Hi Shell, i too would love to be at your table with all the others here:)

It would be great fresh and nutrient dense food; and wonderful energy and company from all the caring ppl here 🙂

I have got lost in all the posts of what u and MM cook up. I am still binging all the time. Which is so bad. Yes, it is like i am 90% asleep. My eyes feel heavy; they are dry and sore and tears are ready but don't come. I am too asleep to process any real life, feelings. I am so tired, but can't sleep. Well i am sleeping lots of lil 2 hour things all the time, but it is not proper sleep. I am on alert i think and unable to properly sleep and rest. I feel dead. The last few days moreso. I think because interaction with narc abuse the other day that has zapped me further. I think u seem to understand that numb feeling. I hope it improves soon and i sleep better. When i feel like this, so not here and a zombie, i binge more. I buy heaps of carbs and just eat it all. My energy gets low and so i crave carbs. But it is a vicious cycle

My fav fruit? It changes, i go thru phases. Overall probably blueberries and honeydew melon would be my most consistent favs. I think i read u like passionfruit most? I don't think I've ever had it lol.

I hope u have a good day Shell and everyone here:)

[Guest_1643]

i'm sorry its frustrating mm. i struggle with body image and know it can be frustating. sending care.

[Guest_1055]

Oh MM, I know you want it so very much. Its a challenge to be patient I know. 😊 As much as I want to loose weight too, I do my best to focus on nourishing my body with tons of vegetables and fruits etc. Rather on the weight itself. I can be discouraged too if I look at the number on the scales. And as you know slip up with junk food.

What is the allowed time in your comp anyway. Maybe you feel pressured a bit about the time limit or something.

I pretty much agree with what Golden said... Pretty good advice. You were in perimenopause did you say on your thread?

Can be frustrating, wish I could help you more MM. You do have the desire, drive and fighting spirit.. so that is going for you

Like Sleepy I too struggle with body image.

Are you drinking plenty of clean water, just thought I would ask that?

[monkey_magic]

I am on a time limit with the weight loss, I still have plenty of time but I should be losing something every week. I thought I was perimenopausal bcas I didn't have a period for a long time but I'm not, it was the result of the meds.

Yep, drinking enough water.

I feel a bit better because I've only had two meals today so I sort of feel like I'm back on track.

I just have to learn to live with a dull hunger.

The pressure to lose weight did creep up bcas I am on a time limit. I can extend the time it just means I win less.

[Guest_1055]

That's good you feel like you are back on track MM. I am not as yesterday last night I walked down to the servo and bought some snacks. Late at night too. I know why... Felt lonely and down so definitely emotional eating. I do regret it.

Are you sure it's true hunger?

[Guest_1055]

Hi Golden

Oh blueberries yummo. Yeah that's right my favourite is passionfruit.

And I do know the numb feeling for sure. What did you do to help yourself in the past with the binging?

Yeah you are right, it doesn't sound like proper sleep. Your body isn't sleeping enough to renew its self. So yeah no energy. I wish I had the answer for you to help. Maybe baby steps.

Hoping you get some more quality sleep

It's so challenging isn't it.

What is happening to me at the moment... Its 1:17am where I live. I ate junk around 10pm...so now I am still up. Then in the morning.... Who knows how I will feel. Going on history... Yeah probably struggle with energy as well.

Hi Sleepy