Night Owls (for those awake late and can't sleep)

[Croix]

Dear All
The purpose of this thread is as a meeting point for those that can’t sleep and it is late (I.E. AFTER midnight.)

It can be a useful space for users to share their issues with insomnia as well as coping strategies. It can also be a general space for users to converse and support one another throughout a difficult night.

Please note – for those that are just bored or lonely we already have a place - the BB Café, which I recommend instead of here

https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/online-forums/bb-social-zone/the-bb-cafe

Croix

[Matchy69]

Hi Emo I am so sorry you are struggling at the moment.I am here if you need to talk.

[Guest_4643]

Hi Emo, are you ok? I'm here for you. Are you safe?

[Sophie_M]

Dear Emo,

We’re so grateful to have you reach out to our community this morning and are so sorry to hear everything you have going on at the moment. Times like this can definitely get overwhelming . We hope that you find our forums to be a safe and supportive space to talk through your thoughts and feelings. Our community is here for you. 

Our Support Service is trying to reach out to you via email as we're worried about you. 
We hope you know that there is always help available to you, whether it's from our professional mental health counsellors Beyond Blue (available 24/7/365 on 1300 22 4636) or our friends at Lifeline (13 11 14) or the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467).
Keep checking back in with us whenever you feel up to it. 
 

[Emo]

Hi Sophie M,

Thank you for your kind words and your concern. I'm so sorry that I'm not replying to everyone individually who has reached out to me and offered their support but my situation has worsened.

The abuse I am suffering has increased so I made the right decision after a suggestion from the Beyond Blue team to contact 1800 Respect. I have been trying to protect my husband from getting into trouble but its come down to my life.

I had a kind but very blunt lady who I web chatted with. She made me see that my husbands not protecting me in what he's doing to me so why am I trying so hard to protect him.

I think I needed a bit of tough love. I'm so sorry and I hope that you will all forgive me but I will be taking a break from the forums for a while until my mental health is in a better place. I may also be homeless again so I will be without a device to reply to anyone.

Please know that I truly appreciate everyone's kind words as I feel truly alone with no one I can talk to as I'm completely by myself as my mother now refuses to talk to me as she says I should be just happy that he even wants to touch me.

Its taken me a while but I realise now that I can't have her in my life any more as she is too toxic to my mental health. I deserve better. I'm really trying, I hope I'm not letting anyone down. Thank you.

Regards,

Emo.

[Guest_1584]

Pleased to say my training, l call it , is going very well and as long as l can by pass bad thoughts at the time l'm back to crashing at12 -1am'ish now. Usually wake about 7 , poke around on the pc for awhile then get up for work but l am getting some sleep.

rx

[Matchy69]

Hi Randomx that's good your training is going well and you are getting some sleep.
I wake up a few times during the night and having a few weird nightmares.I am just so tired during the day and I have the kids this week so I can't have a nap during the day.

[Guest_1584]

God yeah you need it for the kids for sure.

l've been at it 12 mths now , slight relapse for 2mths in that , bad thoughts , but l'm back on track. Pretty pleased with it really l've gone from yrs n yrs of 2 n 3hrs a night to a good 6-7-sometimes even 8hrs now.

[ecomama]

Dearest Emo

You're not letting anyone down by taking a break. Big hugs!

We all care about you and what that 1800RESPECT Counsellor said is 100% correct.

Keep safe!

Love EMxxxx

[ecomama]

Hey rx

Those are really impressive positive changes to your sleep patterns!

Maybe those delicious tomatoes you grew are helping?
lol.

Just joking, all your rewards are from all YOUR hard work and discipline!
WELL DONE YOU.

I'm off to make some tucker and bought some fancy textas at Officeworks to play with.
I'm gonna hang out with the kids and get out all our textas!

Hope that everyone is keeping well.

Love EM

[Guest_1643]

Hi night owls!

EM love the fancy highlighters. Cute!

Lately i've been thinking my insomnia is just anxiety (No "Just" - anxiety is huge....but anyways...)

more anxious = less sleep for me.

I was very anxious for a few days and kept up all through the night. I was able to resolve the anxiety and got a decent night sleep. Now tonight I'm quite anxious again so that's hard.
No sleep for me.
I'm in acceptance mode. There are always difficult nights for me.
Even if we talk about sleep hygiene, rain sounds, and all that cool stuff, it's fun, but still, I can't sleep.

For now.
Always staying open to change. But for now.