Night Owls (for those awake late and can't sleep)

[Croix]

Dear All
The purpose of this thread is as a meeting point for those that can’t sleep and it is late (I.E. AFTER midnight.)

It can be a useful space for users to share their issues with insomnia as well as coping strategies. It can also be a general space for users to converse and support one another throughout a difficult night.

Please note – for those that are just bored or lonely we already have a place - the BB Café, which I recommend instead of here

https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/online-forums/bb-social-zone/the-bb-cafe

Croix

[Emo]

Hi Everyone,

I'm feeling completely overwhelmed right now. I didn't get the job that I was interviewed for which has broken me as I feel like I've lost my last chance to finally get freedom. It really hurts.

I've also been dealt another terrible punch in the stomach as I've just found out that my Uncle is extremely sick and they don't think he will make it through the night. It's all happened in the last few hours.

I don't know what to do, I'm trying to stay strong but its all just a blur right now. I was already feeling very depressed as I approach the first easter without my dad. I know nothing will ever be the same again but I just want to be able to stop crying for a while.

I was going so well with my dads passing but it's gotten really bad in the last few weeks. I feel like I'm drowning but I'm trying to come to the surface but someone is holding me down under the water.

I'm sorry, I think this has turned into a muddled mess of words but I'm just so lost right now. I just want to get my life back.

Regards,

Emo.

[Matchy69]

I am sorry Emo you didn't get the job.That must feel like a real kick in the stomach for you.I hope you can try again to find something.
Ian so sorry to hear about your uncle.I have been in that situation where you are just waiting for the news.You are in a grieving process but can't fully grieve properly.Sending you big hugs.
Take care,
Mark.

[quirkywords]

Emo.so sorry s out the job and that you are not doing so well.
you have tried so hard and it seems unfair to miss out on the job.

You are a strong person and you are supported here.

[Lillylane]

Hi Emo,

You’ve had a lot to deal with!

I understand approaching Easter brings up all sorts of difficult thoughts and feelings when we’ve lost someone dear to us. I struggle with it too.

But you will be able to move forward. When we’re overwhelmed it can take a bit of time and self care to be able to see it.

Big hugs from me too Emo xx

[Guest_4643]

Hi all, only just found this thread again. Came to ask if anyone is awake.

Malaika - yes, I go on positive threads such as the self care often. 

[Guest_1055]

Hi Tayla, yeah I am awake. Not sure what time you posted though

[Guest_4643]

Hi Shelll. I can't remember either, haha. Around 10 or 11pm I think?

[Emo]

Hi Lillylane,

Thank you for your kind words. I'm in a very bad place right now. I can't stop thinking very bad thoughts. I'm trying to fight against it.

I can't reach out for help.

I'm so sorry I should be keeping these thoughts to myself but I'm hurting so much. I just need some help so badly.

Regards,

Emo.

[Sophie_M]

Hi Emo,

We are so sorry to hear that you are struggling with your thoughts. It sounds very difficult and overwhelming. It takes a lot of courage and strength to reach out for support and we are so glad that you have done so. We hope that you can get some support here, the community will be here to listen and chat with you. If you find yourself feeling overwhelmed by suicidal thoughts, we would recommend that you contact a crisis service:
•             Lifeline – 13 11 14
•             Suicide Call Back Service – 1300 659 467
 
 We have sent you a private email offering some further support.
Sophie
 

[Lillylane]

It’s OK Emo, no need to apologise. I’m sorry to hear you’re hurting and hope you feel safe to share with us here.

Take care,
Lillylane