Hi all,
Hmmm, negative thoughts. I've been having a few lately, and it's usually around how certain other people see me. It's a difficult one because it has claws attached, that dig in and don't seem to let go.
One of the things I remember our teachers (meditation) saying is about our attachments- and I don't think I got it at the time. But now, 20 yrs later, somehow it sinks in a bit more. It's about not giving those negative thoughts any energy whatsoever. Noticing, then letting go. Don't get caught up going down the rabbit hole, trying to 'solve 'it (me, every time!) Come back to the present, the now, the breath, the task at hand. I guess for me recognising the emotion behind it helps, if it's anger I can take a run, if it's sadness I can let myself feel it, shed some tears, whatever, just allow it. Or pop it away for a later time, if now is not good.
It's not easy this stuff. Simple ideas maybe, but difficult to do. And the thing is, we are choosing to do things differently. That's always harder than doing the same thing you've always done. We are rewiring the brain, don't you think?
I'm catching myself now getting hung up on these tears that I've shed as I've been writing, but really, they're gone. They were here, and now they've gone.
Do we need to talk less about our pain/illness and more about our wellness? I don't know. I don't think so. I think that when we've talked about our illness enough it naturally changes, so we can talk about our wellbeing. I absolutely hate it when someone asks me how I am, and I say just the tiniest little bit and then they're trying to cheer me up. I guess I do love a good wallow tho....
Life sux sometimes! It's good to be able to say so, and feel heard and understood.
Not everyone is ready to hear it tho.
Sorry if I'm getting off track.
Sorry for saying sorry....
Cheers
J*
