Meditation, Manifesting, Gratitude & The Law of Attraction

[CMF]

Hi everyone,

Not sure where to start so hope I can express myself clearly and maybe with others' input we can expand on this. I'm interested in people's thoughts/ experience with meditation, manifesting, gratitude & the law of attraction. I've recently started using the Smiling Mind app to meditate when going to sleep and sometimes when feeling a little anxious, like tonight. It is something i thought i could never do as my mind rarely stops, however, with persistence, I find I enjoy it. I guess i tend to have a negative mindset which I am determined to change.I always felt uneasy about thinking positive things as i thought i would jinx myself, and that whenever I made a positive comment or felt happy it would go wrong or something negative would happen. So i refrained from allowing myself to be too happy, I guess to 'protect' myself. Recently i have been feeling happier, stronger, expressing gratitude and taking note of when things have come to me when i needed them. Coincidence, or answers to what i put out to the Universe? I like to think the latter. A work colleague one day told me to manifest something i wanted, put it out to the universe , so I'm trying. Example, recently we needed to measure the floor space at reception so we could calculate how many people we could have in at one time. I needed a tape measure, which i did not have. At that moment our handyman walked into the office. Guess what he had? I am getting into the habit of practising positive thinking instead of thinking/expecting negatives. If something 'negative' does crop up, it can be dealt with, it's not the end of the world. I look for the positive in every negative situation. I am becoming more aware of being grateful for little things, things like getting a good car park at work, a warn cosy bed, a tidy house. I feel when i am expressing gratitude I am putting positive thoughts out into the universe and I notice more positives instead of focusing on negatives. Late last week we had internet issues at work and a colleague i found a little annoying. I've been feeling very drained, agitated, negative for a few days. This morning things were not running smoothly for me. A result of my negative mind perhaps? Little things became a big deal, my morning was crap. If i look back, it wasn't really an issue, i just did things in a different order which gave me more relax time this evening. The Law of Attraction, positive thoughts, positive experiences.

What are your thoughts?

cmf x

[CMF]

Thanks therising, 

I think part of feeling flat is that my little miss' dad has not seen or spoken to her for weeks. Little miss is also not interested in seeing him. I think she dreads it. This means I no longer have Sunday to myself.  This was my day for me. To come & go as I please. To have freedom from routine. To sit in a cafe, go shopping, catch up with a friend. If I were with my ex this would have had a big impact as Sunday was the only day we spent together. We would not survived if i had little miss every Sunday.  Funny how that's worked out. I'm hesitant for her to go to her dad's on Sundays knowing he doesn't care as I know how he can be & don't want her around him in that case. She feels like she doesn't have a dad, he acts like he doesn't have a child. Maybe it's triggered me. 

[therising]

It's a shame they can't relate to each other more. In that case, they could have a great time together and you wouldn't have any concern or worry. I can recall saying to my husband over the years something along the lines of 'You need to make more of an effort when it comes to spending time with the kids'. His response to that was 'They don't want to spend time with me'. I advised him as they grew that the park and other things little kids love were no longer of great interest to them and that it was his job to develop new interests with them. While he still insists (after all these years) that it's a 50/50 relationship when it comes to effort, trying to explain 'You're their father, one of their guides in their life, so guide them toward a stronger relationship with you' this continues to fall on deaf ears. I also mentioned the possibility that, as adults, they may not have a terribly close relationship as a result. With my daughter being almost 22 and my son being 19, they have a basic relationship with him but not a really strong and healthy one.

I think, as mums or primary carers, we grow up or develop with out kids and as a result grow closer to them. If the other parent puts themself in the position of 'breadwinner' and nothing more or they insist 'You're their mother, you deal with it (when it comes to our child's challenges)' they can be distancing themself without necessarily realising.

If her father's not too concerned about whether your daughter goes to see him on Sunday's, would this be time best spent with her seeing her friends instead, while you see yours? While your ex could be encouraged to develop a new and healthy relationship with your daughter, even at this point, the question remains 'Would he actually put the work in or would it best suit her to find quality time with others?'.

[CMF]

Thank you again for your insightful words. I try and encourage her to be the bigger person as I do believe has some issues. I had her call him yesterday. Their footy team lost by a few points & have missed making finals so told her that was a good opener. Turns out he'd cut his finger open & was in hospital. They chatted & she asked if she'd see him next Sunday (Father's Day) he replied on if she wants to. She replied yes so he said they'd try & plan a nice day out. A drive perhaps & have lunch. I saw her relax a bit. She has Monday off & asked if she could sleep over as he has Mondays off. I think he was happy with that.  As he was in hospital he had to go a few times but called her back. I asked if she felt better afterwards,  she said yes.  I find I need to teach her that he struggles with some things, he doesn't understand so I want her to understand she may need to accommodate that at times. He's very different to M, my recent ex who believes his boys in their 20's, will never leave home as I think he wants them with him as long as possible. He's not happy for his son to buy property in the country as it's too far for him & he won't see him enough. They are both self centred but in different ways.  I'm happy my daughter reconnected with her dad. I felt better but something still niggling at me & I think it's a work situation.  My vibe is a little low.  Not where I want it to be 😒

[CMF]

Im also very sad & hurt again about my recent ex & what occured. I've started journalling my feelings again. I need to get them out rather than have them going round in my head. I will never send them to him but I need to freely express myself.  

[therising]

I'm glad things are looking up in regard to some good bonding time between your daughter and her dad. Such a satisfying experience, feeling happy for our child.

The journalling sounds like a good idea. It might offer a few much needed revelations. I can't recall whether you've ever previously mentioned having ever dabbled in automatic writing. While some see it as a way to tap into the powers that be, others simply use it as a tool to delve into thought, unresolved emotions and subconscious stuff. Each to their own.

Very excited for you, with a free weekend coming up.🙂

[CMF]

Yes, things are better with her dad. Unfortunately though, he had an accident with the lawn mower yesterday which resulted in him requiring surgery & losing the top of 1 finger. I'm quite sad about it. I spoke with him today & he's happy she'll be staying over Sunday night & she is happier too.

No, I haven't tried automatic writing. I'll look into it.

Feeling much better today 😊

[CMF]

Had another dream about recent ex last night. His sis & boys were in it too. I vaguely remember it. Guess he's just been on my mind too much. I doubt I'm on his. 

[CMF]

Omg. I had a missed call. It's making me nervous. No message or anything so it may have been an accident. I'm not asking any contact. 

[CMF]

My card reader says it wasn't an accident. That he was calling to see how I am & catch up.  I just can't. I'm not contacting him. If he wants to know he can message me.  I'm in too good a place to make contact.

[CMF]

I knew after seeing his sis the next would be something from him.