dear Mary, sorry it's a couple of days, however are you taking those drugs that stop the urge for drinking alcohol, you may have already told me but I can't remember.
This feeling for one day of falling into the hole will happen, unfortunately, but it's something that neither you nor me could ever avoid, I can't really explain why, or we could just put it down as going through the process of refraining from alcohol.
One pledge at any AA meeting is that anybody who hasn't had a drink for 20 odd years still calls themselves an alcoholic, but I think it should be changed to 'I WAS an alcoholic 20 years ago, and I am here to guide you through the process to ending your drinking'.
We never say to people that 'I am still a young person, and have been for 59 years', because that sounds stupid, it's past history, just saying.
No matter how long you have stopped drinking there will be times when you really feel like a drink, but you don't, because your strength has built up so you don't.
My Mum used to smoke two packages of cigarettes a day, but she had to have an operation, and as soon as she woke up she felt like a cigarette, and she said it was the worst thing she had ever done, because the taste was terrible, and from there on she never smoked again.
I know a couple of elderly guys who had given up drinking years ago, and they said exactly the same if they were conned into a sip, and they hated every drop.
Keep going Mary I am proud of you and the effort you have put into this is excellent. L Geoff. x
