I would like to share my experience with depression

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Hello to anyone that has chosen to read this

I get what alot of people write about on this site.

I have not experienced all of what is written.

 What I would like to share is not going to be agreed with by all and that is fine I really can not possibly expect everyone to agree with my experience because it is just that MINE.However if there is someone there that will seek the correct help for them and they in turn find their place then I am happy and I realize I may never know who you are or even meet you but that is just fine.

This is my truth to my life that I can honestly say that I wish all could see and learn what I have over the last few years.

All I am asking is for those that have this time on their hands because of the depression controlling their lives in a negative way that they seek the help of the spiritual realm. I am not suggesting which one because that really is up to the individual.

Certain people have suggested that I am very spiritual but I just looked at them and wondered what they were on.

For those that have been seriously hurt by the spiritual people it is simply time for you to find the one that is for you.

the one you understand, the one you connect with, the one that helps you bring back your confidence to control those inner feelings because at the end of the day that is what I have personally learnt to deal with and I am living it.No one did it for me as no one can do it for you. Simple.

No Psychologist or Doctor offered me any assistance with what I needed so that just added to my length of time being depressed.They had pills of course but that just cost me more and I was worried about finances as it was so that does not help.

Because I am still here everyday I reckon then I am meant to be. That is how I see spirit working and helping. Everything now good and bad is meant to be.

I have had a new born baby come into our lives and what he has it absolutely horrid but you know what he is going to be loved and cared for like he is suppose to be. In the past I would have been blown away with this event but because I have done the work of the spiritual nature I can honestly say it is real as real as those pills covering my truths.

Since I love to researching things it has opened doors that I would not normally open and in that I have found concrete answers on how to deal with people, situations and I no longer worry like I use to about things that I have absoulute no control over.

A very small example is if I am angry at someone of something I am getting alot quicker at finding out why I am angry at them and can release it alot quicker than I use too and then be in the depressive condition which of course distracts you from living.

Now I am not perfect and would never ever claim to be however I do not feel like I need to be either because I am human first which just means I will make mistakes trip over something and do it again.

The human and spiritual are very very closely linked to me and it is so easy to get confused as to which one we are in but it is possible to improve your skills in some way.

Before I have ended up writting a book for this post which I am not interested in doing because there is a cyber space out there for all to read at their own leisure and if you are meant to meet someone to help you search then so be it.

I would never ever rely on anyone ever again for my spiritual growth but that is me what I have now are people I can call on to toss things over with and that in itself can be the difference between life and death.

I have always wanted to say when I hear people say they need to stop suicide that it is not actually possible to actually know when someone is going to do that. No one knew what I was thinking when I wanted to die and when they did the help definitely did not help at all.However this is not a criticism because I know everyone is doing their best as well so it comes back to my personal timing of when I was ready to start really honestly working on myself.

I have health issues that can take me any time it likes but still I am here enjoying every minute in fact alot of the time they would cause anyone to get depressed with the management of it on an everyday scale. 

Hope this get published

All the best all who get to read it cause thats all I can ever do for anyone.

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