OK here it goes even though im not sure how to word this. I have battled Anxiety, Clinical Depression and what i now realise is dysphoria over my gender since i was in my teens (im now 39) i have come to realise that im pretty sure im a trans woman but alas i am married with a child who i love very much.
I know the consequences will be bad if i come out to my wife because she is about as homo/trans phobic as they come (a fact i didn't know even after knowing her for 4 years before we started dating). She already knows im bi (in fact im pan but its just too hard to explain to her the difference) which ended up in a massive verbal barrage against me and her threatening divorce
After spending a few days away from her on my own embracing my femininity I feel like something has changed in me and im not the same person i was when I left. Im scared that going back to playing the cis hetro husband is going to break me because i cant fight who i am much longer.
