Struggling with anxiety.
I think she has 'Daddy" issues as she told my husband that her real Dad dresses up in woman's clothes. I am not happy at all with what my husband did but I still love him . I have access to his phone, emails and facebook account even the phone bill. I can see who he calls at all time. Ok, the problem. When he is away I am not so bad as he travels up north, he shares his location on google maps also. The trouble is when he is close to our town, my mind/imagination plays havoc. I think that somehow she is meeting him. I panic and sweat and get palpations in the chest and my breathing gets shallow. He knows all about my fears and does not know how to help me. Some days I not sure if trying is worth it. He and I both know it will take a long time for me to trust him again and says he will do what it takes so I can feel better. I just hate feeling like this
It sounds like you have a few issues here to deal with being the behaviour of your husband, your marriage and possible trust issues, the lady next door, your anxiety and possibly how you feel the community feels about you.
Can you se a marriage counsellor with your husband?
Do you have a Dr you can talk with in regards to dealing with your anxiety?
Controlling our thoughts and emotions is not always easy. It can be so easy for one thought to run into another and another until our minds are telling us all kinds of things.
Is there some way you can find a STOP button for your thoughts before the anxiety takes over?
Is there one thig you can do for yourself each day to help you feel better about yourself?
Hope you find ways to understand and deal with your anxiety.
Regards from Doolhof