Dear :Printers
I read elswhere you asked
" Do you think maybe one day in the future she will heal enough to want me back?"
Nobody can answer that any more than you can. You wife probably does not know the answer herself.
All she does know is that her present life is bringing back all the injury she suffered as a child , this being partly the pregnancy and child and partly the pressures of your court case over your own child by a previous marriage.
So she wants out.
Actually I'm afraid resorting to alcohol and shouting can have had a great effect, more than you can imagine on her.
I'm not blaming you in the slightest, you are under great pressure. I can understand sadly why you have drink as a coping mechanism and lie about it, Family Law is one of the great and terrible pressures one can face in life. As an ex-policman I've seen its effects too often. Please do not think becuse I understand I am condoning the drink, It will not help you or your case or marriage. -sorry to be blunt.
Your wife would be very fragile, the hurt and injury providing many trigger points and reminders, and while she had a stable and happy marriage with you to start with the child and court case have simply been too much.
The fact she opened up to you is a hopeful sign -though how she feels about it now I do not know. As least at the back of her mind she will know there is someone she can be honest with. Feeling able to continue to work is good too.
I am concerned about you, Sophie has give you a couple of places to go to, and I think they can only do you good. To be isolated and at sea simply makes matters worse.
Apart from that do you have any family or friends you can talk with frankly and lean on a bit. It makes a big difference as I found out if someone will listen with patience (I tended to say the same things over and over) and care -but not suggest impractical ideas on how things can be fixed.'
You are always welcome here. We do care
Croix
