Lonely and don’t know where to go
I have a 9month old beautiful and healthy girl. But it still hurts like crazy.
I have this guilt and failure inside me that is just getting bigger and bigger.
I failed as a mother for not being able to give my little girl a sibling and failed as a partner for not being able to give my partner another child.
Not only that I have this fear of losing my little girl or partner.
My partner communicates with a lot of females and can sit outside while I’m inside wanting to talk to him.
Sometimes I believe he is just waiting for someone better to come along and I have to compete against these females.
We used to be in each other’s pockets now it’s like he has checked out of the relationship and I can’t get him back.
As I’m going through this he is still chatting to random females off the internet and I’m alone slowly dying inside. Maybe he does need someone better then me.
Thank you so much Jess for taking the time and replying to my post.
At times I believe that my partner must need more or someone better this is why he is doing what he is. And why I have failed as a partner to him.
I just wish he would own up and just tell me.
Its hard to speak about it all without being emotional but I’m trying so it becomes easier over time.
Thank you so much again you don’t know how much it means to me.