Hello Lilone1, forgive me for not understanding what's happening, but I'm not sure if you are still living in your partner's house? You say in your post that he has kicked you out? I think the most important thing for children is stability. You can be living in a palace, but if the parents are arguing and fighting and there's no love in the house, the children will pick up on that and it will have a profound effect for years to come. The finances are an issue, but you have been together for five years and have two children. He would have responsibility for the upkeep of the children in the event that you did decide to separate. You say you love him, and you want to make this work, however, only you are best placed to know if that is possible. There is an age difference between you, which will give you different priorities and views on what you want out of life. You sound like you feel very dependent at the moment, and unable to make a decision based on what you want as an individual. Perhaps think about what you want in your heart of hearts, if there were no constraints. What would that life look like?
