Anyone who knows a bit about me on here may know that my dad isn't the nicest guy in the world and we have minimal contact after he left when I was pretty young
Im making this post because he has been contacting me, he sent me a message not long after midnight saying happy new year, although I appreciated them I got a few so just ignored them all, generally people just send them to their whole contact list
He messaged me again 1:05am, have a good year maybe this year things will work out for you
I replied, they did this year but thanks dad
By 2am I'd gotten a page long I'm sorry for not being there message let's go for a drink tomorrow night we can make things good
I didn't reply I was with my partner and I wasn't ruining both our Nye getting worked up over it
Now I'm upset, I see him I risk him upsetting me, I don't see him I risk him hating me and mum even more
I'll be the first to admit that I do not know you at all, so I am in no place to make huge comments about your life.
I have some significant issues with my father who is not the nicest of people either. My father and I do not talk as of about a month ago and my relationship with him is the subject of some of the counselling I have had.
Without really knowing the circumstances, I guess I have a line of thought or some random thoughts.
- Is there anything in the 2am page, that suggests to you he is a substantially different person?
- If there is, do you believe he has changed or just wanting to meet with you?
- Is meeting him going to change anything?
- Do you want any sort of ongoing relationship with him?
- Have you forgiven him for what he has done to you? As one of my counsellors has told me, forgiveness is important to healing, but it does not mean reconciliation is going to happen, it may but there is no guarantee. I'm waiting and hoping that my father will acknowledge and apologise about 4 aspects of my life. I have forgiven, or am working on forgiving him for those things. I don't hold out any great hope of him acknowledging what he has done. But if he does, that does not mean the relationship will just magically go back to what it was. It will not, and there may not be any reconciliation.
I guess that is a long version of what my advice would be to be very very careful and without know the background a drink may not be the best place to meet him.
It sucks that you have to start you year like this. Good on you for not replying. I know you, I know your story. I personally think it is better to cut contact from now on. Last year he suddenly appeared and each time you saw him bad things happened. He bought you things to butter you up but when you didn't do what he wanted he turned on you. Do not risk upsetting yourself again. You have come a long way since you started here, don't go backwards. As far as him hating you and your Mum more, I wouldn't worry. Let him have the hate, it shouldn't affect you. He hurt you alot last year, you gave him many chances, he did not change and he won't change.
You have a lot of good things happening for you this year. Focus on them and moving forward, not going backwards.
Ive seen you around the forums but don't know your story.
I had parents both mum &a dad who were both physically and mentally abusive towards me growing up. I eloped at 18 and never saw or spoke to them for over 40 years.
My father passed away, I never went to his funeral, even though he was abusive towards me he was still my dad and the guilt I felt not attending his funeral will always hang around me.
Mum contacted me around 5 years ago and wanted to meet me for a coffee. I was hesitant and decided to ring her first and speak to her to see if she was genuine or not. After my initial phone call mum called back on a weekly basis, I started to get to know her. It took me nearly 8 months of phone calls to agree to meet her.
We met at her home, it was a very strange meeting both of us were uncomfortable and the meeting only lasted 15 minutes, a few more phone calls and we met again, this time was better then the last time.
We continued to meet on a monthly basis, I got to know her again but not as the mum I remembered but as a different mum, she had changed. 2 years after the first meeting she died, I went to her funeral and mourned a mother that I knew for only 5 years.
Its a hard decision you are trying to decide, maybe phone contact first for a few months, just to get to know him and see if he genuinely wants to reconcile with you.
Not sure if this helped or not.
I hope you can make the right decision, it won't be an easy one to make. but please look after you first..your important.
kind thoughts GG.
Also before i say anymore i just want to mention a few things
my dad left mum, my brother and i, didn't want anything to do with us, we didn't really him he moved up to qld.
mum got remarried, my step dad and step sibs are really nice. dad has come back in my life the last couple years (mostly since my brother died) trying to talk to me, i went to visit him in qld once and he seemed ok and when i got back he wasnt very nice to me online. ever since then he has been contacting me, i have seem him a bit. last time i saw him he bought me all this stuff, kept the receipts and when we went back to his house (he moved back to melbourne) he told me if i didn't x,y, z he'd return the stuff and he also hit me, but then he comes back and makes it seems like everything is ok again
so, thats a run down of the story with dad
sorry my post was of no help.
It is a difficult situation you are in. No one has the right to hit anyone ever. I just read CMF post, he knows you and your story, by what I'm understanding in his post and what you just told me I agree with CMF. You have given him chances before and he continually hurts you. You don't want or need hurt in your life..Try moving on with the knowledge that you tried your best to reconcile. That you tried should give you peace of mind that it is not you, you gave him chances and he is not willing to change his ways.