Hi Throwing Away,
Welcome to the forum and the community here. Don't be concerned about where to post, if the moderators think your post would be better off somewhere else, they will let you know. Here is good!
It does sound like you have a lot on your plate right now. Having a wife who is ill and a child with Autism must be very difficult at times in itself, let alone the other issues you have also mentioned.
For me, I try not to lump everything into one basket, other wise my mind runs away with itself and causes all kinds of catastrophes and troubles.
Looking back to earlier days when life seemed a lot easier and had less hassles can be very appealing. I am sure many of us have taken that journey. I'm wondering if you did catch up with those old friends of yours, how they might be today themselves.
Do memories of your brother become more intense around times like Christmas? This time of year people have the image of "Happy families" in their minds so you may well be desiring the old days when life was a lot easier.
Is there something you can do each day to make that day better for you? I try to find things during the day that I am thankful for. It helps me shine a bit of light in the gloomy areas of my life.
Make a list of things you generally enjoy and try to do some of those things if possible. Just writing them down may help you realise how much you do have.
Hope some of this helps! Keep sharing how you are feeling and consider ways you can help yourself, even if they are just small steps.
Cheers from Dools
