Hello Teej
Dropping in to see how you are going. As we have not heard from you for a while I am wondering what you would like to do to get some assistance.
Without trying to upset you may I comment that actions you have tried in the past you may see in a different light in the present. Always worth a second look. Also I am quite sincere in offering to work with you to find a way to help you. I am not a mental health specialist, I have my experiences and also the experiences of others I have talked with. Sometimes these can be more valuable than formal therapy with a psychologist or psychiatrist as we know how it feels to try different methods and actions and how hard it can be.
Would you post in again and we can restart the conversation.
Mary
