Stuck.

[claudiflower]

Hi my name is Claudia and this is just feeling like a shout into the void but I’m hoping something will come of it. I have been diagnosed with severe depression, generalised anxiety disorder, social anxiety and OCD. I had what I feel very changing and horrible experiences through my childhood. I felt there was a lot of abuse through the situations, but they call me crazy and slam me back down. I’m 15 years old and have had mental health issues majorly impacting my life for around 7-8 years now, I remember praying and begging for my life to be taken before I could even comprehend suicidality I don’t know how or if things will get better, I don’t even know if it is possible to work through these things, I don’t know if they can help me. I’ve been on around 4-5 medications, from lowest to highest doses, 13 therapists/psychiatrists and nothing has helped. It just feels hopeless sometimes. I’d like to hear about if anyone has been in similar situations. But I should wrap this up now. There’s so many people here and I’m just one. I don’t wanna take up too much. I hope everyone has an absolutely lovely day. ❤️

[romantic_thi3f]

Hi claudiflower,

You can probably see near my name that there's a tag/whatever that says Community Champion. That means that it's our role to see posts that haven't had replies, jump in and say hi. But we'd do that anyway, because we care about people. You are heard and you are seen in this void. This place is created for everyone, and I am glad that you're here.

I do genuinely believe that things can get better, and I say that because I've been there. I kind of am there somedays. I'm not sure though what the trick is, because it sounds like you have been through the ringer in trying medications and therapists. Maybe it's thinking over what worked/didn't work with your therapist? What sorts of things did they say/do when you saw them?

For me personally, it was about finding a good therapist, but it was also about figuring (or imagining) what I needed in that time. Do you need to feel like your experiences mattered? Do you need to understand how what happened in the past affects you now? You know yourself best.

I hope that this helps somewhat. Thank you for posting even though I can see that it wasn't an easy thing to do.

[IreneM]

HI Claudiflower

I was like you alot when I was your age. I can relate to how you feel when no medical help has worked. I have had bad advice too, but persistence does eventually pay if you keep seeking another opinion. So it is worth seeking to find a therapist that you are comfortable with but try not to expect them to have an instant cure. TIME IS THE HEALER! Sure that there are many others here that can vouch for that.

With the medications: I recommend that you be patient with whoever administers it. Also only have one doctor look after ALL of your medications where possible, if not tell a pharmacist EVERY medication that you are on. This can include multi-vitamin supplements. They will ensure that no major side-effects occur.

Try and allow any medicine up to a month to become effective, a few take longer but most are effective by then. Long wait I know but it is worth it with the right help.

Whilst waiting I encourage you to go to PERSONAL BEST on the tab above and utilise some of the resources on there along with GET SUPPORT.

There is a separate section on this forum for young people too, under PEOPLE LIKE ME.

Take Care.

Irene.