So I can't get this out of my head

[Murd]

Me and my ex broke up at around about just after Christmas last year and we had a great relationship going, but there was one thing that annoyed me. One night while doing "activitys" I told her to stop yet she didn't and kept going and I kept trying to stop her but she kept me down and sexually assaulted me that night.

I'm now in a state of confusion, stress, anxiety and depression with this as the thoughts of that night still lingers in my mind till this day.

Is there anything I can do to help it or just somehow remove the thoughts from thinking about it as it just pops into my mind every night to this day, even something little would help.

[Sophie_M]

Hi Murd,

Welcome to our forums and thanks for posting here tonight. We are really sorry to hear about what has happened with your ex. Consent is critical in any interaction and not respecting it is a very serious matter. We are very sorry for the distress you've been facing. We hope our wonderful community will chime in and provide you with the support you need.

We'd really encourage you to contact 1800RESPECT. They offer 24/7 confidential information, counselling and support for people impacted by sexual assault, domestic or family violence and abuse. The lovely supportive counsellors have a lot of experience offering advice and support to anyone who has been through trauma like this. You can contact them on 1800 737 732 or visit  https://www.1800respect.org.au/ 

If you would like some help finding mental health support, we would recommend that you get in contact with the Beyond Blue Support Service. They are available 24/7 by phone on 1300 22 4636 or on Webchat 1pm-12am AEST on our website: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport  One of our friendly counsellors will be able to talk through these feelings with you and can offer support, advice and referrals. 

Please know you are in a safe, supportive place here and we'd love for you to keep us updated on how you're doing, whenever you feel up to it.

[Petal22]

Hi Murd,

Im really sorry this happened to you.

If this is distressing you I highly recommend you speak to your gp, you could do a mental health plan together this will enable you to see a psychologist…… a psychologist can help you to deal with this.

Here to chat

[Pumpkinella]

Hi Murd,

I'm so sorry to hear what has happened to you. I too have experienced trauma in my life and had all the feelings of confusion, stress, anxiety and depression.

I agree with Petal22 that seeing a GP to get some sessions with a psychologist would likely be a tremendous help to you. You don't have to go into any explicit detail with your GP. You can discuss your symptoms and draw up a mental health care plan.

If that seems too much right now then 1800RESPECT as Sophie suggested would be a good place to start.

If you feel like chatting here more about it as well I'm here to listen. Reaching out the way you are now and getting some support will work towards reducing those feelings and finding a way to make sense of things.

Sending you love

Pumps