My posts don't require a response. I most often post as a Diary, so ALL GOOD!
If you ARE reading, please know these are my thoughts on life, healing and relationships (mostly).
Re all the TW stuff. So this requires another *** TW ***. Please SKIP for any reason at all.
My grandmother, EJ, lived till almost 100 as most of my family had.
She gave me the valuable gift of TIME and opening up to SHARE her life experiences. They all did!
How Blessed and fortunate am I.
EJ explicitly told me of how she grappled with the progression of her life, esp through loss and grief.
It was a long tale, spoken over many visits. Thankyou Nanna.
Of course I didn't KNOW at the time that these precious talks were lessons to me, teaching me how TO navigate life into "extended time" (I'm moving away from using "ageing" lol).
I simply HELD SPACE.
The FIRST talk I remember this happening, I must've been 3yo lol. My G Grand Father sitting in a chair and me being obedient and sitting on the floor in front of him lol.
Like a child in a classroom!
I was always in AWE of him. Patience was a virtue that eluded him! lol.
He would yell at my Nana for food etc and I would tell him OFF! No one would abuse my Nana on my watch lol!
I learnt how TO and how NOT TO behave!
Ahh and so I come to a stage where people are passing over in quick succession.
I feel the loss in my forearms. Like I wanted to HUG them one more time. Say goodbye when I didn't get the opportunity to while they were still living.
So I do so to their spirit in my own way.
Blessing their path into the afterlife where they are free.
What a strange thing LIFE is, where in my case I have been faced with death of my closest people since a very early age. My sweet, happy courageous brother. Family. Friends too. All of my beloved pets.
But this is only in life. Our spirits will be free after wards.
Peace, love and JOY to all,
Love EMxxxx
