Dear Melhun79~
Welcome back to the Forum. I'm very sorry to hear of your husband's conditions. I think in those circumstances anyone would be beside themselves with worry, and would certainly feel like running away or into a corner and hide from it all.
The big thing is of course you have not been doing that but have braved everything and done exactly the correct thing each time. You might worry that you might not be equal to the task at some future time, however I seriously doubt that.
I guess the only two things you need to ensure are you know hte best position to put your husband in (and give medications if that was what you were told to do) until the ambulance arrives
The other is to start seeing about support for yourself - that is highly important.
When someone one loves is in danger there is a strong temptation to feel one should be a bottomless well of strength to give support. If one struggles with this it is no shortcoming of you, it is simply being human.
Your GP sounds a most unhelpful person, and it is precisely at this time you need someone who can help.
On the medical side have you considered changing GPs and asking about counseling?
On the personal side is there anyone in your life to help, maybe take over watch your husband for a while to give you a break, or even just listening and caring?
Your husband too may need support. I've been in a simialr situation in the past and felt both guilt at upsetting my wife, making her look after me, and simple frustration at myself and my condition. As well of course worry how it may end.
I think you are loving, brave and capable and I'd like it if you let me know how you get on
Croix
