How can I fight against corporate people?

[Federer]

How can I fight against the corporate environment and the previous who took me for a ride and abused me to the point of no return. Sadly, these people in power are much smarter than me because they eat meat and fish they are able to outthink my every move and they got away with sleeping with anyone they want. Emotionally abused me and brainwashed me without my consent sadly I have no say in the matter because it's a form of gaslighting where the parties got away with subtle abuse and I saw them play god with my life without my consent I think this should be posted as well for people to know how horrible working Centrelink /Medicare in the corporate environment out there is it's made me lose passion in my life where I go what's the point and my team leader got away with a lot of bad thing.

[Croix]

Dear Federer~

Welcome back to the Forum. Reading your other posts I can see that life has given you a very hard time, mainly through the employers you have had. I also see you have tried all the conventional methods of setting things straight without much luck.

As you have pointed out all this has done you a great deal of harm, and I'd suggest -if you have not done so already - that you seek assistance in coping with this. True it does not make the employers any less powerful or injustice any less, but maybe it can lessen the unhappiness and frustration you feel, at least when not at work.

This can be done either through seeing you GP and explaining the circumstances and how you are feeling or else getting counceling as was suggested before. It is no reflection on you to take either of these paths, just a practical way of stopping it ruining your life.

The other tihng I'd suggest is to try to draw a line in your life each day, with work on one side, and everything else on the other. Give yourself time ot do things you have enjoyed in the past, also things that distract you and let you forget the world's ill for a little while.

I use books, music, movies, talking with people who are ok and a lot of other things. It can give me something to look forward to when life is hard.

I know what I like may be very different from your tastes, may I ask what sorts of things you might like?

Also do you have anyone to lend you support at the moment, family or a friend perhaps? It is hard to face things alone.

Croix

[Federer]

@Croix - Yes, life hasn't been easy for me.  In terms of getting help yeah my parents are there but there is only so much they can do. I feel I flushed my career down the toilet because I listened to my older brother rather than my parents and  my former boss threw me and entire family under the bus deliberately and they got away with everything and elevated themselves into higher positions. Whilst, I am here struggling to earn a minimum wage and struggling to finish a course in Cybersecurity which is not something i am interested but I am just doing it so I can stay relevant out there. I am getting rejected left, right and centre when it comes to finding better jobs where I feel I am being forced to work as a slave rather than a person at my current job.

Well, some of the things I used to enjoy the scene is not what it used to be in the past where I listen to a lot of trance music but the tracks being made these days are too chaotic and almost like noise nowadays compared to how trance sounded in the past. I just feel numb nowadays and I never read books in the past I did watch a lot of tv though but my parents don't want me to spend too much in front of a screen. 

I am still fighting the scars they inflicted onto me. Leadership was nothing than a scaring competition. I wish I never joined and both myself and my brother struggling with my mental health and confidence levels because it's ultra super competitive out there and I am late to the game and don't know where I am going and we fear how our lives will be in 10 or 20 years from now or even our 80's 90 and or beyond if we live to that age. I had episodes of pericarditis ( We never had a heart condition in our family) no thanks to the trauma, abuse and stress the workplace put me through and sadly I could not turn to anyone for assistance. Sadly, they've aged me considerably I struggle with self care and they've turned me into a 90 year old geriatric where I am taking medication my grandparents were taking when they were alive a number of health conditions.

I struggle with a lot of bad smells behind my ears, swollen feet, heart conditions, self doubt and feeling intimidated around people who are extremely arrogant of themselves or whom are aggressive and toxic which I never used to get before I was thrown in with the hyenas and around that deep end of a toxic work environment where I was gaslighted and brainwashed and coercively abused against my will and consent which they put me through. It has forced me body to change like this. Before I joined I was extremely good with self care but the work environment used the system against me.

All of the people whom I worked with elevated themselves into higher positions and they took no accountability at all. Sadly, no one believes me enough to help me and I took them to court but older brother says I will lose if I take them to court. What do I do? I am struggling to finish courses and sometimes simple tasks or solutions are hard for to come by and I react with a lot of anger.

[Rosie]

Hi Federer

They sounded ghastly to work with, really, really toxic.  It upset me when people at work target someone and bully them until they resign and worse when they all join in - real team effort.  From what I've read in other BB posts, many people are finding themselves subjected to bullying in the workplace and it is clearly affecting their mental health.

I agree with Croix, life has indeed given you a very hard time. Do try and see a GP, hopefully they can help you develop strategies to cope. You deserve better Federer and it's appalling that these people got away with such unprofessional behaviour and have left you badly scarred. I know that terrible feeling of disempowerment that others can so easily inflict on you, and when you try to tell someone they casually say things like "just ignore them" which is impossible.  Hang in there.

Warmest regards,

Rosie x

[Federer]

@Rosie, sad thing is that I saw the people who were escapist/fantasy land get away with everything and take no accountability and I saw them play god with my life without my consent and because I am indian they were able to manipulate me without my consent as well. Centrelink/medicare had this "We Care" thing but I wish I never come to Australia and I had the fraud team breathing down my neck in subtle ways without my consent and we are scared that they might try to split my family apart and I fear that the only reason why they are being nice to me for the moment is because they want something from me and they used money and god. I am not a religious believer btw I believe in science but they stole everything from me without my consent whether it that be on the phones, or corporate environments.

[Federer]

Sad thing is that the workplace I worked with had absolute power it was such a dehumanising work culture where some women in that department either get treated like prostitutes or like royalty there is no even ground or normal to them and the environment gaslights you by having normal defined for you according to their specifications. They have links to doctors too so even if I go to a doctor they will just give me drugs to escape from reality but it doesn't help me solve my own problem. I feel helpless, powerless because everyone is chasing money nowadays and no one seems to care anymore which is sad.

[Rosie]

Hang in their Federer.  Perhaps keep a journal of your journey or write a fictional book about your experience.  You can be an indian character who comes to Australia and ends up as Prime Minister or the CEO of one of those giant corporate companies. Then you can have some control.  Sometimes a fantasy world can help.  Hope that makes sense.  Alot of us are left feeling powerless.

Warmest regards

Blobfish (formerly known as Rosie)

[Croix]

Dear Federer~

I think in this instance you brother may be right and taking anyone to court would be a very expensive matter, with no guarantee of any success. When I read you posts I see you have been reacting to their bad treatment, and naturally enough feel badly as a result.

Unfortunatly few people are in a position to ignore those who bully or deceive if they are in positions of power. An avenue htat may help in life is to do htings for you that please and occupy you. If you a  person htat goes to work try to divide you life, and when home take up other activities, ones you  enjoy or can get satisfaction from

Rosie may be right and writing may provide a distraction, then lain there may well be other things. I for instance use books and movies, and some exercise.

Do you think taking up an activity of your own choosing might give you some relief from a hard life?

Croix

[Leo25]

I worked for a government organisation for 35 years they have destroyed me. I have no family. I have no friends. I have no job I have nothing. I don't want to be here anymore.

[Rosie]

Hi Federer

I feel your frustration and the injustice that the government department has inflicted on you for over 35 years.  I used to work at a University as an admin and suffered from some truely disgusting behaviour over my 42 years of work.  When I retired I left feeling like an empty shell, like those 42 years of hard work and loyalty were for nothing.

I'm worried about you Federer as you are obviously in a very dark place at the moment and I know that place all to well, so I'm not going to say to you "have you tried this or that" as it will make you feel worse.

When I'm in the dark place I find it best just to wrap myself up in it and wait it out.  I also go into my fantasy world which I've been doing for 55 years.  It has now been given a name, it's called "Maladaptive daydreaming".  It often happens in childhood due to loneliness and neglect.  I find it really helps me as I become another person (I can't bear being me) and have all sorts of adventures.

It sounds like you really need someone who can take care of you at the moment, like paying the bills, going shopping etc so that you can have some respite.

Please don't give up Federer as there are people here at BB forum who do care about you and want you to live.

My very warmest regards and a big hug. 🫂😊

Rosie xx