Wishing for a friend to talk to

[dragonflies]

Hi,

I feel alone. I'm 19 and I have no friends anymore. No one to confide in, trust, or share my life with. I just want someone to talk to. Someone who gets me and who I can relate to and vice versa. I find it hard trying to make friends. I dread the process of getting to know someone completely for who they are. It takes so much time and effort. I have only ever been hurt in the past after making such close friends and having them just drift away from you without a care in the world.

Does anyone feel like this too?

dragonflies

[Doolhof]

Hi LuLu,

Last year I helped out w3ith Riding for the Disabled for a while. It became far too hot in the summer months for me to be out there in the sun. They cancelled the riding when it was over 33 degrees!

I'm enjoying my volunteering in the Op Shop, at least the shop is more climate controlled! I find it interesting chatting with some of the customers, you meet all kinds of people there.

Some people are great conversationalists, others make talking to them very hard work. Ha. Ha. Some days my brain just feels tired and I have difficulty keeping up with the flow of the conversation.

One of my girlfriends talked for hours. All I had to say was hello then goodbye when I left hours later. No other comment was required the whole time I was there. Ha. Ha.

Takes all sorts to make the world go around.

Cheers from Dools

[LuLu_]

Hi Dools

im so sorry for not replying. I’ve been feeling quite sad and lonely. I just haven’t had the energy to post. Sorry I’m advance if I do not contribute as much as you. I volunteered for the Riding for the disabled as a part of school and my mum also spent a year leading the children around. I feel for you in that heat. I’ve been riding in it lately and it hasn’t been pleasant.

i relate to you not being able to hold conversation. That part of me right now.

To all reading

I am wishing for a friend to talk to. I am feeling quite lonely and worried. The anxiety is present and I don’t know why. I feel like I have no one. I am not really in the mood for anything and I don’t really care about much. I feel guilty and worthless. I feel self hatred and helplessness. I think ‘what’s the point’. I feel like everything is my fault. I am tired

lulu

[dragonflies]

Hey

I'm feeling very much the same... I don't have much energy left either. Don't know what to say...

If you want, type a big message just letting out all you're feeling and thinking? Im always hear to read, you're not alone LuLu, we're here, even if there is no response. Always listening.

dragon xx

[LuLu_]

Hi dragonflies

your reply means more than you will ever know. I don’t really know what to say as well. Perhaps I need a break. I am always here to listen as well. Thank you for your thoughts and for taking the time and energy to reply.

talk soon

lulu

[Ulysses]

Ahhhh the mask we wear. I’ll come sit with you too

[Dniaiu]

Hi LuLu,

that paragraph after "To all reading", is a beautifully poignant piece of lyric poetry!

If I was a teacher of English, I'd give it 10 out of 10.

So, thank you for giving something that really touched me.

[startingnew]

Hi everyone

sorry ive been abit MIA, ive had to limit what ive been doing due to an old injury flare. as its my neck and back it casues muscle stiffness, a heap of pain, blurred vision, dizziness and a few more things but it made it hard to write and see properly so havent been able to respond to much except to update on my thread every few days.

anway welcome to our new members, would you like to introduce youreselves alittle more and we can get to know you? theres also a thread called 'Get to know you' with a few questions there as well

how has everyone been? it seems some are having a particular hard time, would you like to talk about it??

Also everyone is welcome to come and 'sit' with me. sometimes there are no words to describe what we are feeling so sititng amongst our vitural friends can help. always know your more than welcome to talk about whatever is bothering you. theres no judgement here and we can offer our inisghts or experiences to help you through the fog

hugs to all, and always offering a a kind heart to listen xoxox

[LuLu_]

Hi SN

I will sit with you. How I wish someone would sit with me and just let me be me. So I didn’t have to pretend. So I could say that i am unsure of how I am and whether it will ever get better.

lulu

[startingnew]

hi Lulu

you dont have to pretend here. whats bothering you at the moment?

[LuLu_]

Hi SN

I am sorry I’m advance for the weak response. I feel like I have replied to the whole world. I will keep it short this time.

I feel so lonely and sad but only when I am aware which makes it feel like i am just making it all up. I don’t know if I am okay. My mind is spinning at the moment. I feel the want to be in a downward spiral just so I can feel something. I feel so numb and without feeling. It’s horrible but I want the urges. All of them to come back and flood me with pain and hurt just so I know for sure what I think and what I feel.

I hope you are okay. How are you? How do you feel about be start of a new year and the end of 2017?

thank you for your reply it means so so much to me

lulu x