Wishing for a friend to talk to

[dragonflies]

Hi,

I feel alone. I'm 19 and I have no friends anymore. No one to confide in, trust, or share my life with. I just want someone to talk to. Someone who gets me and who I can relate to and vice versa. I find it hard trying to make friends. I dread the process of getting to know someone completely for who they are. It takes so much time and effort. I have only ever been hurt in the past after making such close friends and having them just drift away from you without a care in the world.

Does anyone feel like this too?

dragonflies

[startingnew]

hey lulu

sorry ive missed this, im heading to bed now but will come back on tomorrow. its been a very big day

[startingnew]

Hi lulu


sorry for the delay, ive had a lot happening and was at the ED again last night for a burnt hand. Im home now.
Its hard for people to understand mentla health unless they have experienced it thmeselves whereas for us we can go ok they are having a bad day, give them some space or send them a supportive msg. Others arent sure what to do or how to act or what to say. No its not your fault, maybe you could contact them and organise a catch up and leave your worries at home, put the your ok mask on for a while and just enjoy yourself.
Yes im feeling better since hospital, its like a reset button kinda thing but more for those who are really unsafe.
Yes I do feel like ive improved since reaching out but not without the hard yards. It has been a yr since I first started reaching out and only now am I noticing a difference. Its a long road and one that you cant do all on your own.
My greatest support are here on the fourms. I dont have family or friend supports at all, I do have my gp, a psychologist and a psychiatrst which I dont like seeing but they are keeping me alive. Ifeel we need a mix of friends and mh support, the friends more for not only support but to be able to put on that mask and just go out and not worry so much.

hugs xoxo

[Doolhof]

Hi Startingnew,

Bless you for wanting some of my "wisdom" I have needed some of it myself today. I've been out gardening and felt like crying most of the time I was there! Tears are okay, they can be healing, I just wasn't sure why I was feeling so lousy.

I considered what my triggers might be and thought it could be related to my husband being away this weekend, it is getting closer to Christmas, and I still don't know what is happening health wise for myself.

While pulling up the weeds I decided I could feel really miserable and sit in the dirt to cry, I could have a sense of achievement with all the work I was doing, I could consider happier thoughts, decide I didn't have to feel defeated...after all my husband will be home on Monday, Christmas will come regardless and the garden will still be there if I get it cleaned up or not.

Our cheeky minds can take us on quite a journey. I know mine does rather easily. If I was not more aware of my emotions, I could have plummeted very quickly this afternoon. Thankfully I have taken actions to stop that from happening.

Yes, SN, I will pop by your thread and say "goodaye."

Cheers all from Mrs. Dools

[Doolhof]

Hi LuLu,

Just wanting to reach out to you to say Hi and to let you know that you are not alone in the way you are feeling. Unfortunately mental health issues can make us feel alienated from others, and some people just don't understand depression or mental health issues at all.

Are you able to reach out to just one person, maybe invite them to join you for a coffee or go to the movies perhaps. Sometimes just being with someone at the movies, not talking can be comforting.

Feeling lonely and depressed is not a very healthy combination. Do you ever do things for yourself? I like to take myself out for a coffee, to the movies, on a drive, a bus trip or what ever. I have learnt that doing things for myself helps me feel better about life.

It helps me to create my own sense of happiness and contentment. Yes, I certainly enjoy being with other people, yet being content with myself is so beneficial at times. If I had more energy there is a lot more I would do.

Hope this helps you in some way LuLu.

Cheers from Mrs. Dools

[startingnew]

aww Mrs D, hugs to you, you poor thing though im glad your aware of your feelings. christmas seems to be a hard time for alot of people on both BB and offline.

i do love your wisdom- notice without quotations because i do think it is wisdom and bloody good one at that! think its maybe a few pages back now, so thank you very much xoxo

[LuLu_]

Hi SN

the act of putting on a mask is too painful for me. I am so exhausted that any social interaction makes me want to run for the hills.

Thank you for your support.

for now i will just sit tight and wait.

X

[LuLu_]

Hi Mrs Dools

I will get back to you soon.

Thank you for your message.

lulu

[dragonflies]

Hey guys,

Sorry for not replying lately I haven't had much energy to even think let alone type. Not sure what has triggered this low for me. Hasn't passed and I don't know when it will. However I've still been reading along. Glad to know you're all here. Thank you.

I hope you have all been doing okay. Thinking of you. Will msg back properly hopefully sometime soon.

Any news lately?

I have been cleaning out and reorganising my mums house room by room. Has been distracting me from my low but I've nearly finished the entire house... Don't know what to do with myself. Don't want to be left to think at the same time as not wanting to do anything - doesn't make much sense hey.

dragon

[startingnew]

hi LuLu

it can be really hard pretending your fine when your really not, i have to do that alot that it almost comes naturally to me now.

ill come join you and sit with those horrible feelings, your not alone

Hugs xox

[LuLu_]

Hi dragon

I am really glad to hear from you but saddened that you are not feeling any better.

I don’t want to pull all the attention towards me but I suppose my news is that I’ve decided not to attend my year 12 formal. It’s so trivial that i am even talking about this. But it’s sad that I don’t feel welcome to attend a function every person in my year has a right to attend. I just don’t want to put on a mask and try to fit in. I don’t want to pretend everything is okay when I feel more alone than I have in a long time. But I feel less pressure and stress knowing I don’t have to go.

Thats my news I guess. Trivial and unimportant compared to everyone’s grievances here. I feel selfish and guilty even directing attention towards me when there are people in much worse situations.

Do you feel a small sense of accomplishment for all the work you have completed in your mums house? Perhaps this could be your victory. You are being productive even though your energy is low.

I feel like i am saying everything wrong, a little bit like a waste of space so I might leave it there for now.

Hope to hear from you soon when you feel you cab

lulu