Hi Birdy & thanks for your big post yesterday. It’s now 8.30pm Saturday.
It sounds like we have a lot in common. I’ve had the problem with teeth clenching before, but not now I hope. I think I broke the pattern of that by buying a sports mouth brace at a pharmacy to wear at night. I didn’t have any problem wearing it & it did help me so it might work for you too. Clenching our teeth makes our jaws ache & is so bad for our teeth as well.
Did you move from one city to another, from city to country or country to city ? Like you I had imagined what it would be like, & it's not turned out that way at all. So for me how it’s turned out has been quite a shock & I’m starting ‘cold’ which is hard, incredibly hard.
Coupled with that, I’m painfully lonely & bored too & while there are things I could be doing it requires a fair amount of travel, either driving or train, to get to places, there’s walking & I have mobility issues, plus I feel sad & lonely to be doing it alone. And the weather has been so hot, humid &/or rainy so much thru summer & now the autumn it’s yet another problem. The weakness & tiredness caused by A&D (anxiety&depression) makes it difficult to. I’m feeling like the odds are really against me.
Neighbours - I understand the people-pleaser thing, I’ve got caught up in that before. It’s hard isn’t it. I like & need my space too. I’ve got neighbours on one side who I’ve never seen, so I don’t even know what they look like. On the other side we’ve met, it’s been friendly and they’ve invited me in a couple of times, but I’ve never invited them yet because my place always seems to be such a mess & I get embarrassed. For various reasons & more recently because of the A&D I’ve been very tired & never can keep up & get ahead. PamelaR said on a post today I think how important it is for her to be organised & tidy, with a clean kitchen before she goes out - same for me but it hasn’t happened for a long time.
Yes Birdy my confidence has been shot to bits too & it does make so much difference doesn’t it.
No I haven’t been for walks, except when going to the shopping centre - I try to walk from one end to the other & back again. Outside it’s too humid or raining although I know I should for my own benefit.
Ive not been a daytime tv viewer until recent times, when I’ve watched more than I ever have. I like to do all sorts of things but this A&D has made everything so difficult - I’ve lost the plot. A movie tomorrow might be good tho.
bye for now Birdy
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