unsure what to do

[Wednesday]

Hello,

When do you know a relationship is over?

[Apollo_Black]

I know it's probably in hand but I'd also ensure your GP has checked your vitamin D, iron and B12/folate levels

[Wednesday]

Thanks Apollo, it's great to have your response.

I have a heap of specialists, I think that is all most a part of the problem and why I get so overwhelmed or switch off and don't remember what they said.

I am very aware that I need to exercise regardless of any pain. High dose cortisone and no exercise equals no muscles! And I don't have a sporting bone in my body! I go to a gym when I can and the staff are lovely, it's not like a normal gym and quite small. Actually I've never been to a normal gym, so I shouldn't say that. It's linked and overseen by physio's so I am well monitored. For example they just reduced all my weights. It helps that I have to pay up front and I hate wasting money! They did get me walking again, okay hobbling and tripping over but independently.They tell me to use a hydro pool but.... I can't swim and don't have an affinity for water.

Do you have similar sort of condition? do this sort of exercise much?

I do I feel guilty if I don't take my dog out for a walk, so he has been a good influence since I got him last November. I drive to the off leash dog park, he runs around and makes friends and I pat all the dogs that wander by, which is nice.

On the relationship front it feels incredibly complicated and overwhelming. What you said is right. I need to find a way to protect those guilt producing buttons.

Thanks again. x

[Wednesday]

Hi Sherie,

Thank you for your note. I'm glad I found the bb site, its been great to feel like a part of something and no one seems to worry about my lack of typing ability. Thank you for joining my thread.

It made me cry little to read that you care about me, thank you that is just so lovely. It's a pretty lonely life. I guess I'm lucky to be an introvert.

My partner has been away for a week, and sadly it has been a relief. Even so there has been plenty of anxious episodes that he has contacted me about, it's all quite crazy and tiring. He does know that he is anxious and tries to manage it. In some ways it is easier on me if he lets it out otherwise I have days of odd behaviour as he tries to keep it all in his head. I then of course decide I have done something to upset him and he is cross with me, just horrid.

My depression is sort of managed with meds.

I hope you and Holly enjoyed your fruity lunch. Happy is snoozing in the sun.

Please take great care of you. xx

[Apollo_Black]

Hi Wednesday

No I don't have a chronic condition but I help people with chronic heart issues. We've had a lot of good results with exercise programs and I myself have found it extremely beneficial. Pain is a hugely limiting factor and I' glad that you've got something set up, stick at it if you can.

[Guest_5218]

Hi Wednesday. Back home again after a busy day at work. Thanks for your reply to my post. Lack of typing ability is not really a problem. Do you have problems with typing because of your arthritic issues? Not that I'd noticed any problems with your posts, mind you.

I'm sorry to hear of your recent cancer treatment, and the resulting auto-immune problems. Any chronic condition is tough to put up with .. simply because they dont let up. I am not familiar with psoriatic arthritis. Is that similar in any way to Rhumatoid Arthritis, which is an inflamatory auto-immune disorder. I imagine it is very painful, as are all varieties of arthritis. And thyroid disorders can be pretty difficult to treat. I'm glad that you are still able to do some limited exercise, under proper supervision. Hopefully this will help to either improve, or at the very least, maintain current abilities. I'm really sorry that all this means a very restricted travel itinerary now though. You have obviously been a very avid traveller in the past, and no doubt you are missing the ability to just up and go when you feel like it. But you never know, perhaps it isnt out of the question down the track. In the meantime, you have your magic carpet where you can take us all on guided tours. (-:

Ha ha, happy tears are good. I'm pleased if thats what my message yeserday gave you. I do care about you .. I meant that 100%. I love how you have quickly become such an integral member of the Forums - active, interesting, knowledgable, caring, empathetic and already much loved. I hope that it brings to you as much comfort as what you are providing to many others here. Thankyou so much for .. um well .. for being the wonderful person you obviously are.

Gentle hugs to you Wednesday. And a playful pat to Happy.

Sherie xx

[Wednesday]

You are a sweetheart.

The disease are really complicated and painful. They attack tendons, ligaments, bones and then useful organs like heart and lungs. The meds help some of this but mostly have failed, side effects include liver damage, umm you have to wonder what is worth taking!

xx

[Wednesday]

Oh dear, sorry, I have probably made things sounds worse than they are. I have a great arsenal of medications that I can use. I often don't use them because I don't want to become addicted, which is a bit silly. 🙂

xx

[Wednesday]

Thanks for your concern Apollo,

I will keep at it the best I can, exercise can be a bit of a double edged sword so it's just getting it right!

It sounds like you are passionate about your work you have some lucky clients.

xx

[Wednesday]

Would it be inappropriate to have a conversation about quality over quantity of life?

[Wednesday]

Okay so P is back tomorrow. I've given a lot of thought to the possibility he is a narcissist and I think there is a reasonable probability. I though it was just his anxiety that made him behaviour the way he does and maybe that is still the case.

So where am I up to? I have no answers on the health front, so need to hang around where I am because it's where my doctors etc are and my medical records are a nightmare to go through. I had to change GP it was a frightful experience and pretty scary for the receiving GP, all sorted now though.

I'm in an odd space with P. I do love him but he drains me, whatever is happening to him is always going to be a higher priority than what's happening to me.

I could just accept that behaviour...

To split up I would move state and who knows where I would be able to afford to live and if I could get the same quality doctors, who have been through a lot with me.

It exhausts me thinking about what all that would mean.

To accept P as he is means I have to find away to protect myself from being hurt by the family stuff.

Maybe I am too damaged to manage the situation.