Thinking about death.... all the time...

[Guest_1643]

Hi all

I've been struggling for 3 weeks with suicidal thoughts

My new GP is amazing

He tells me to think of suicidal thoughts as a symptom maybe a solution

Could he be right?

Today he assigned someone to give me a call to check in on my safety. I don't think that will happen. I've not received the call.
Small things like this lead to rage, hurt and fear for me.

And so I am left to deal with the thoughts alone.

[Guest_1643]

Thanks Chris. Nothing they say makes sense

First they said I couldn't read it because it's very jargon like

So? I can deal with that.

Now they're saying itncan make one upset...

Who knows.

I don't really believe in personality disorders , there is a movement saying they're inappropriately given to ppl who've experienced trauma. And that if they were believed or taken seriously about their concerns, no personality disorders given,

I particularly find mine ocpd annoying.

My gp says he's all about seeing ppl as individuals and not getting too into diagnoses, he's rare and a good egg that way.

[Chris_Tas]

Hi Sleepy.

I shouldn't laugh but your first sentence did make me laugh as I totally agree with you.....ha

My personal dealings with psychologists have been horrible - they are completely full of it imo (but that's just my view and I still encourage people to form their own)

Who are they to tell you what can or cannot handle? Sure I wish I hadn't of read mine in hindsight but it's still my choice to make, not theirs.

Your GP sounds great. I'd listen to him.

Chris

[Guest_1055]

Hi dear Sleepy...

I thought it was a legal right for any patient to see their own medical records. When you think about it logically , they all are working for you. If it wasn't for you and the other patients they see, they wouldn't get paid.

Anyways if you get the opportunity to see the records, may I suggest taking a photo of each page on your phone. Then you can take it with you and decipher it all.

And yeah I don't like labels...

[Guest_1643]

Hi Chris,

I've not had great experiences with psychologists or psychiatrists....so I can relate!

Hi shelll...when other ppl go to psychologists and share their experiences I sometimes think they are being too easy on their professional....but I am doing the same !

I believed whatever rhey said and didn't push her too much...but she is getting paid.

Her job is to help me. I will try take a photo....that's a good idea. It is so stupid that I have to take notes.

I told the psychologist today that I feel excluded as everyone on my team has seen this report but me. My psychiatrist has, my clinicians at hopsital, and my case manager.

It is a funny feeling.

[Chris_Tas]

Hi Sleepy

My last psychologist i left crying - he was a nice fella but full of hot air and yeah.....

I'm not proud of upsetting someone but I refuse to listen (and pay for.....these clowns charge more than a lawyer) to complete nonsense.

[Chris_Tas]

It's not funny Sleepy.

It's illegal and that's why you've been given multiple answers.

They are lying and your records are exactly that.

[Chris_Tas]

As in he was crying not me.

[Guest_1643]

Hi Chris, I see it differently Re Ur last psychologist u likely did that for a reason and they were probably not being very nice.

I have reported a previous Dr to the medical board, I didn't stand up for myself at the time and this man walked all over me.

He would regularly insult my character and use offensive terms.

[Guest_1643]

I've had a rough day here, very lonely and isolated,

Feeling irritated and triggered from family members.

I don't see how I'm going to get through the next few weeks...January is rough and this New year is just a triggering time.

[Chris_Tas]

Oh yeah I absolutely did it for a reason Sleepy.

I was attacked by this idiot so unfortunately my instinct (not a great quality I know) was to attack back.

He didn't know what I'm capable of but I will say I'm not proud of it, despite his own failings.