Thinking about death.... all the time...

[Guest_1643]

Hi all

I've been struggling for 3 weeks with suicidal thoughts

My new GP is amazing

He tells me to think of suicidal thoughts as a symptom maybe a solution

Could he be right?

Today he assigned someone to give me a call to check in on my safety. I don't think that will happen. I've not received the call.
Small things like this lead to rage, hurt and fear for me.

And so I am left to deal with the thoughts alone.

[Guest_1643]

Hi Chris, sorry it's so tough, here for u in any way to talk.

I have regretted being harsh to my psych, so I can understand. Something I said hurt his feelings but in the end he can take it,

The psych I had who was so rough, incompetent and damaging, I kinda wish I'd been more harsh. He was arrogant.

How long til Feb 8?

For me I hold out week til week to see the psychiatrist, and he isn't even amazingly helpful, but is just nice enough.

[Chris_Tas]

Hi Seepy.

I'm a very polite person but if tested i change - thing is (which is so disappointing) these "professionals" ask you questions but can't take any in return.

As a lawyer i like to ask questions. I believe i'm entitled to.

They are cowards imo (as never answer outside a couple....one guy here is an absolute brilliant fella and "gets it" even though a psych)

[Chris_Tas]

Please change your Psych.

I've met many and most are complete morons (in my opinion)

I did a wicked guy and he knew me more than I do myself.

Extremely impressed so I'd move on (no not life a new Psych) of I was you Sleepy

[Guest_1643]

Hi Chris,

Agree, sorry u had such dodgy ones. I like what u said about questions, I also like to ask questions so I can relate...

I changed psychs and have a new guy, the old one I reported to ahpra.

He really exploited me financially.

[Matchy69]

Hi sleepy I feel sometimes medical professionals do exploit us and don't care.I have found both good ones and Bad's ones over the years and when I find a good one I try to keep them and get the most out of them.At the moment I am having a break from them and feeling I am not getting the treatment I deserve from them partly due to covid.

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

(hi sleepy

the forums feel a bit funny and uncomfortable atm. but I just wanted to tell you I came across the poem you wrote on the poetry thread and I really appreciated it x)

[Guest_1643]

Hi Mark,

Im very happy with my gp and know what u mean how good it can be and how u hope u can stick with them....,overly to see u here

Hi Katy, I forgot j wrote it, thank you so much..i love reading all the poems there so I am glad u liked reading mine!.

[Guest_1643]

Needing some sleep, anxiety has been so high.

I've been pretty agoraphobic these past few days. My brother is moving to new Zealand, world getting smaller and smaller sadly. Got a text about it today and haven't been able to reply as I'm so shocked...

He is very adventurous and works in a field where Darwin has xareer opportunities.

I'm so upset about my family generally, he's rhe only one I tall to, the others judt abuse me or trauma dump on me.

I can't believe how my aunt and uncle can't see outside ofmthemlseces.

I got a happy new year text, so i replied simply thank u, wishin gm u a happy new year. Just one brief polite message.

Then I get 3 messages about how it won't be a good year for her because she's so stressed by her work and she is scared of covid and she doesn't want to catch it and she's unable to go a trip she's planned...

We haven't spoken in a year and then in a psych hopsital.

I can support, but she doesn't support me. So I feel used.

[Guest_1643]

Feeling a bit validated....was told the hopsital doesn't know why, they judt have a rule to not show reports to ppl, they have been making up answers because they don't know why they do it that way

Re it being except from freedom of information they would have labelled it such?

[Guest_1643]

Hi all.

How are u? Im listening and here .

Hi Chris,

I've been told that if my report is except from f.o.i., its because the hopsital has labelled it such , its probably just the way they always do things, and no one knows why,

Hence the stupid explanations.

I was suggested to speak to the senior psych, who runs things there, but imcant get in to see her til end of Feb. No one else seems to want to help me.

I want to see mynreport and keep it, not just sit there and take notes,

Blergh. They are so rude !