Taking antidepressents for the first time tomorrow morning.

[Cesca1557]

Hi,

Im not really sure why im posting this but Im feeling really unsure about taking medication tomorrow. I have had depression for about 7 years, but at the beginning my mum thought i was too young (i was 12-13), and its only now that I have finally decided that I need something else to help as I cant seem to make myself happy on my own.
I am really hopefull for what the antidepressents will do, but I am also really worried. My father has bipolar, and I am really worried that by taking them, it could trigger it in me. I dont have bipolar my self, but due to the genetic predisposition to it and the increased chance of getting it as my dad has it, im really worried that this might be enough to set it off.
As much as I want to be happy, if it risked me going through what he has gone through and put us through over the years, I wouldnt do it.

Sorry, im not really sure what the point of this was, I think I just wanted to vent a little bit.

Cesca

[Pysis]

Hey C

i hope your ok.

do you reckon I could get some advice from you on my thread?

thinking of you

Nath

[Cesca1557]

hey nath,

i replied to your thread an hour or so ago, hope the advice helps
the prac went well, it was really interesting and some of the lab instructors were really helpful and gave lots of different tips to remember different muscles and nerves and arteries etc
i did have a nice night out but today and yesterday have been pretty hard
im feeling very empty and disconnected and just struggling a little but hoping it doesnt last too long

[Cesca1557]

hey KMTE,

its been pretty average the last two or so days to be honest, and yea i havent been on here too much either.
the side effects are fine now, were bad over the weekend but began to go away after that
super happy that your beginning your new meds today! sorry you are feeling nauseated, i hope it doesnt last too much longer
how are you feeling today

[Pysis]

Hi c

thank you for your help it means a lot, sorry I took me a while to reply I had to go to my nan and pops to make sure they were ok.

thats good your prac went well I reckon it would be really interesting.

im sorry to hear your having a rough couple days, I actually picked up that a bit in your writing I hope your ok. I hope you feel better tomorrow.

im here if you need to talk.

thanks again

Nath

[KMTE]

It seemed to go away abit once I had some breakfast so hopefully that's as bad as it gets! Ive been feeling very tired and a bit spaced out today but I know what I'm in for for the first week or two this time. I hope you have some better days soon! Is it the side effects that have made your last few days so average?

[Cesca1557]

hey nath,

dont worry about it at all! hope they are okay

oh really? what did you notice that was different in my writing?
thankyou, i hope so too

[Cesca1557]

Hi KMTE,
thats good that it did go away! hope it stayed away 🙂
thankyou, i hope so too
no actually, the side effects have pretty much all gone the last few days. ive just been feeling really empty, low and a little numb (not sure how else to explain it).
i just want to curl up in bed and wake up when things are better again, but sadly i have so much uni work to do

[KMTE]

I'm so sorry you are feeling that way. I hope you have some better days ahead 🙂

[Pysis]

Hi C

im not sure there was something just differnt about it, usally your writing is really enthusiastic and you can tell when your happy but yeah there was somthing differnt.

im glad your side affects are gone but I truly am sorry that your feeling this way again hopefully it won't last to long, unfortunately it was going to happen sooner or later it's unfortunately how depression works. I really hope you ok.

thinking of you

Nath

[Cesca1557]

hi nath,

thats really interesting you picked up on it! i had a re-read through a few posts and i definitely can see it as well a little bit now

yea i know, depression sucks hey.
im turning 20 later this year and its scary to think i will have had depression for my whole teenage years. 13-now. im trying to be positive, especially now that ive finally taken medication, but i just feel so defeated and drained. I dont know what im supposed to be doing to be happy, ive tried everything and nothing seems to work for more than a few hours/days at a time.