Should I just suck this up?

[monkey_magic]

OK, this isn't easy for me to write bcas I respect police also but this is my situation.

I aparantly unlawfully entered a friends property, that's right a friends property. He wasn't home and I wasn't believed. Anyhow I was put in a mental institution. I preferred the hospital choice over the police station choice thinking I'll be in there for a couple weeks.

3 months later I came out overmedicated feeling like shite...misdiagnosed with a mental illness as a " safety net" seriously!!!!

3 months of my life where I couldn't work, and live my normal life. Inclosed in a small space, going crazy.

Should I just " suck this up". ?

[Guest_1055]

Hi MM, thankyou for a bit of an update on what's going on with you.

I believe I understand the chunky, clunky feeling you mean. I don't like that feeling either. Swimming sounds super good though. And you doing the weights.

Do you have a lot of stairs, you could walk up and down them.

[monkey_magic]

Hi Shell, all,

I have a narrow, wooden staircase where I live. Yeah I know about the chunky, clunky feeling...not much fun.

Its amazing how I used to be so fit and active and mobile and now I just prefer to lounge around. I know those meds and after effects have a lot to do with it...they really changed me.

The weight is really hard to get off as well. I lost 17kgs but have been stuck now for many months. The only way I can imagine it will come off is if I go hungry.

[Ggrand]

Hello Dear Magic, Waves to Shelly, Sleepy, Deebi and all.

I used to love swimming, but not anymore...Not sure why though..maybe because it’s be over 10 years since I did it..

I have never stepped a foot inside a gym....it feels too intimidating for me...I’m a bit too old now to even try going to the gym....

I have also not budged even a few grams since I lost the 9 kilos...I’m wondering if our body is trying to tell us, that it’s comfortable at that weight....I really need to loose at least 16 more kilos to get back where I was before I made the decision to take anti depressive and anxiety meds....Hmm right decision for my brain but not for my body...catch 22..I think....

Please don’t go hungry to loose a few more kilos Magic...maybe just downsizing a meal here and there might help...though it’s not working for me, because I am craving chocolate and I’m indulging myself 😂😂😂....I found these chocolates that have a liquid liquor centre, shaped like a tiny bottle....hmmmm nearly finished them and as they are not sold in my town...I’m not likely to have anymore...

I am so pleased I have no stairs inside my house...It’s hard enough to walk down 3 steps to get out into my backyard...

I hope your day was a good day today..I have tomorrow at work..then nearly 3 weeks off....yay...

My love, care and hugs beautiful people..

Grandy..

[monkey_magic]

Hi Grandy & all,

I know those liquor chocolates your talking about, I like those.

I used to love stepping foot into gyms now I'm not that phased really.

I too have 3 weeks off work, hopefully I get out of the house, I'm thinking of booking a couple nights at this hotel with a huge pool next to the beach just to get out.

Are you going to just stay at home for the 3 weeks Grandy? I'm getting kinda used to being a homebody now after covid stay at home orders gave me no choice...now I have my freedom but I stay home a lot.

I keep ordering from menu log....just had indian butter chicken, y'day was pizza.

Mum's watching game of thrones again so im upstairs in my room.

Grandy I like your advice about having less at meals. Body's adapt and then U have to change things up again to continue to lose weight. Not that it's happening to me recently, all seems too hard.

[Ggrand]

Hello lovely Magic...

I am happy that you have some time off work and your looking at going out...Im at the other end of the spectrum and looking forward to staying home...the motel sounds really nice, especially the huge pool....with a beach close by..you can have your choice of different swimming spots...I wish I had the courage to go to a motel on my own...then again if I did I would probably just stay inside the unit all day😂😂😂😂...Strange isn’t it how we want to do things but unable to...

It should never to hard sweetheart to care for ourselves...but it really can be at times...the main thing is to never give up on your dreams or wants...just keep going forward, then if you need to take a break, then put your walking shoes back on and continue again to move forward...one step at a time...

I know you have an incredibly strong mind and once you set it onto doing something you want to...you usually do succeed...you really are one awesome magic warrior women....

Ive heard of but never seen game of thrones....maybe I’ll do a you tube search for a trailer..just to see what it’s about..

Take care of yourself Magic..

Hugs dear friend...

Grandy..

[monkey_magic]

Hi all,

Im happy to announce after months and months of staying the same weight I've lost a couple kgs. I've broken my plateau!! I feel like I'm in the groove again- mind over matter. I've reduced my calories. I need to do this because I entered a weight loss competition and money is involved.

Im currently at a ham and cash draw with mum. Hopefully we come home with something.

Hi Grandy, I guess I do have a strong mind at times....once I stick to something...and right now it's this weight loss.

Its great being out of the house. When I don't work I tend to slump on the couch so this is good for me.

[Guest_1055]

Happy for you MM, in regards to weight loss. Keep going!

[monkey_magic]

Thanks Shell I will.

Now that I'm off work it will be a wrestle with myself about whether I stay laying on the couch with my phone or actually go out and do something like the pools, gym, my nails. It's such a comfort zone lazing about on the couch.

Im still at home under my mum's roof. I'm in two minds about gaining my independence away from her. Once I do it, it's forever. I don't earn all that much so it's a little tricky. I feel a bit slack being here so long but it's ok.

I did end up winning at the raffle, got a ham, mum won $100.

[Ggrand]

Hello Lovely Magic, Shelly and readers....

Woohoo...I am so pleased for you and your mum....A ham plus $100.00...a lovely Christmas surprise for you both...

I can understand you wanting to get yourself independent...I see no rush for that....Your mum is very lucky that you are still with her...I would welcome my children to stay living with me always if I could....

Living with with your mum is good support for you both...life is too short to be concerned about independence, especially if you have lots of love and care to give and receive of each other.....Independence is a wonderful word, but it is also a lonely word....

So happy you have lost a few more kilos...you go warrior girl....I think once you start swimming on a regular basis..some more kilos will fall away....I heard that like walking...swimming uses most of our muscles and it’s a good gentle heart exercise as well...

I like the sound of getting your nails done...I saw a customer come into the store with every second nail red and the rest green....One of the green nails had a few stars stuck on them....I liked them...

I hope you enjoy your time off work, and have plenty of sunshine shining into that gorgeous soul of yours..

Hugs lovely friend..

Grandy..

[monkey_magic]

Hi Grandy and all,

It can get lonely living alone although independent. I'm kinda just biding my time here, feel I should be paying rent somewhere because of my age but I don't have to leave so I don't. We get along most of the time so it's comfortable for me to be here. It's improved a lot actually.

I went for a swim y'day, stayed at home on the couch today. I really don't have much to do when works not on. Sometimes I can't even come up with what to do so I stay lounged on the couch. I bet all those hard workers out there would trade places with me in a heartbeat. I really do have an easy life. I haven't always but now I do. I remember when life was hard and I really didn't like it. Finding the right balance is ideal.

Ive been ignoring guy friends, I even blocked one, I feel I'm growing apart from them. Just spoke to a man with manners and it makes me feel good. No use having these other ones hanging around that kinda bring me down really. It's just one drama after the next and I'm over it. My friend list is getting smaller but I'd rather quality over quantity.

I don't want to couch lounge again tomorrow,might clean my room instead.

All the rave is about Christmas which lifts the spirits I think. All the Christmas shows on tv, lights in the street, songs in the shopping centre.

Thats right Grandy if I swim more the weight should fall off as long as I don't eat a lot and put the calories back on. I'm being careful with how much I eat these days anyhow so the scale can drop. I weigh myself everyday.

Any fun plans for Christmas? Anyone going away or anything? I'm just going to spend it with the fam bam.

Take care

MM 🤎🙉