Should I just suck this up?

[monkey_magic]

OK, this isn't easy for me to write bcas I respect police also but this is my situation.

I aparantly unlawfully entered a friends property, that's right a friends property. He wasn't home and I wasn't believed. Anyhow I was put in a mental institution. I preferred the hospital choice over the police station choice thinking I'll be in there for a couple weeks.

3 months later I came out overmedicated feeling like shite...misdiagnosed with a mental illness as a " safety net" seriously!!!!

3 months of my life where I couldn't work, and live my normal life. Inclosed in a small space, going crazy.

Should I just " suck this up". ?

[demonblaster]

Magic 🐒 Grandy and everyone hi

Sarah Henderson if you've heard of her is a very strong lady surviving so many obstacles living in the outback running a mammoth size mainly cattle station. One of her addictive very good reading books she wrote is named strength to strength.

That's how I see you Monks. She also wrote along the lines of if you can't see the light bloody well look inside and find it. It's true it's in us all. You're finding it.

Remember the good times Magic and how you feel. I truly hope not but if hard times land again taking you down you know now so often time unravels better ahead.

Loven you're on the go again.

I had a little glow reading about the paddock and horses. Beautiful creatures. Nature holds so much beauty too.

Safe travels hun.

Thoughts 🗯 & love.

🐇

[monkey_magic]

Hi all,

I think that would be a great book to read strength to strength and I'm back from my travels.

I spent I think 6 nights up in hotel/ motel rooms and one of those nights was in a cabin. I did a load of driving. It was overwhelming at times. I burned through a lot of cash since the petrol prices are so high even the food was pricey. One night I spend in a hotel room overlooking the water. I feel in two minds about the trip bcas I spent money I had saved but I suppose I would have been bored staying home if I didn't do it. A couple nights were spent with a friend and I did the rest on my own. I got to swim in a pool in a small country town which was great.

I think next holiday I will fly. I realised I don't like driving as much as I thought I did.

So I'm back home with not a lot to do. The weather has been rainy.

My back has been in quite a bit of pain bcas of all the driving...I'm really paying for it.

I should probably count my lucky stars I was able to get that long trip done safely...I'm home safe which is the main thing and there were highlights.

Im back at work on Fri for the first time in months. Time to save again.

Hope you're well.

[monkey_magic]

Hi all,

It was struggle street the first couple days being back at work after so long. In a perfect world I should be looking for a job with more hours, more stability and closer to home which I still might do in the future. Will wait to the covid dust settles I think.

I tend to sit or lay around quite a lot which I don't think is a good thing if I want to achieve goals. It's just what I do.

It s a beautiful sunny day here currently.

Hope you're all doing ok

MM

[monkey_magic]

Hi all,

Well that felt humiliating. I did a body combat class at the gym and felt uncomfortable in my body and struggled with some of the moves. I just wanted to leave the majority of the class. It's terrible ( for me) being overweight and finding things that I used to do with ease nearly impossible. I'm not going to do one of those classes anytime soon.

It brings me down carrying and seeing all this extra weight. I was surrounded by mirrors during the class with nowhere to hide.

[Ggrand]

Hello Dear Magic,

First I want to say well done on taking the body combat class..I didn’t know what it was and google searched it...Wow how intense is that type of workout...

We let our thoughts bully us so much in telling us this and that or you can’t do that that or this....Your too overweight or your too underweight, your to tall or to short....it just doesn’t stop hounding us...

Sweetheart...it doesn’t matter how yours/mine or anyone else’s body size is at all....We live once...why would you not go back and take another body combat class if you enjoy it...Okay your having some hard times with moves you used to do easily before...Can you think back to your very first ever body combat class?....Did you do each move perfectly to start with or did it take you a few classes to get the moves right...Please don’t be hard on yourself lovely lady, the moves will come back to you with a few more classes..

Honestly Magic...Just get yourself out their and enjoy what you want to do..please don’t let your body size stop you from being who you are or what you enjoy doing....I think a lot of people are not doing what they enjoy doing because of their thoughts bullying them into believing they don’t fit into today’s body image for that particular sport, exercise, dance classes ect...

Really how sad is it, that they don’t realise that what they are doing is for them only... not the person or persons in the same class, group, team...

Please... don’t ever stop doing what you like doing because we only live once....So why not live for ourselves by doing what we like....

Size isn’t as important as getting out their and living our best life.... Lovely Magic you will succeed in everything you want to do...their no hurry...

Love, care and hugs, dear friend..💜🤗🌹.

Grandy..

[Guest_1643]

Hi MM

I used to love body combat, and body balance classes, they are sure tough, though. The mirrors aspect is stressful. I'm sorry it sucked, no one should feel excluded fro, excercise, but diet culture does that. Well done on going to the gym and giving it a go...x

[monkey_magic]

Hi Grandy,

I agree with what you said but I hated my stomach getting in the way and not being able to do moves because of it. I didn't like it and felt really uncomfortable being in that class. It's my own issues Grandy. I just felt chunky and horrible and insecure and my self esteem plummeted.

Sleepy I too used to love body combat, infact I used to instruct it, lol....now I can't even do the class as a participant bcas of my size.

Oh well better luck to me once I hopefully shed these kgs....I'm stuck though.

[demonblaster]

Hi Magic 🐒 and all

Dear girl yes I do understand about feeling like that about our bodies it's awful depressing and blaghh.

Hun depression wants us to be down on ourselves. It hyper-focuses us on negatives.

What if we use the negative energy and turn it around to positive energy and mind control in our favour.

If we keep focusing and feeling that way it'll as we all know keep us down trapping ability for lateral positive helpful thought.

You don't give up hun! We've seen that.

I liked hearing only some were difficult.

You really do have it in you dear friend. Go get em girl!

Love and care 🐇

[Guest_1643]

Hi MM, u must be supportive of others to have been a body combat instructor, I used to really love the instructors with their positive energy. I used to feel very self conscious at times too but the instructors had a caring vibe .

I can relate to the shock and pain of seeing that I can't do what I once did, it can really hurt.

Who knows what our bodies are going through, storing pain and trauma.

I think society tells us bigger bodies aren't healthy, but if u eat a variety of foods and move, a bigger body can be strong and healthy,

[monkey_magic]

Hi all,

Well, I'm relieved to say I haven't stepped foot in another gym class and prefer it that way than feeling uncomfortable in more ways than one. I will however swim and do weights.

No more work for me until next year.

Not much else to report. I'm just staying upstairs because my mum is watching games of thrones and I don't like it. It's too gory and violent for me.