Dear MM~
There are some things we don't have control of at times, and they can be very frightening. You have the order and no choice over meds, some like me have other things. When my spine plays up and I wonder if it is going to calm down or if I'm going to be on heavy pain meds plus stuck in chair or bed permanently then I get frighted, and have no course of action other than to wait it out.
I try my hardest to distract myself, books, movies, talk (sadly no exercise of course), even posting here. These are all made more difficult by pain and physical restrictions but are what I've got.
I'm not telling you this because I want you to feel sorry for me, just so you know being a bit trapped is something a lot of people have one way or another, and dealing with it follows established means. (I'm sure you know all this already, but coming form someone else it might reassure)
If I could sort your order I would - as would any of your friends here. Do what you can to take you mind off it. You will get through, you are tough and a survivor. If you can be beside he ocean, swim, walk - even run or the gym if you are up to it - that may help. Seeing a friend ... well you get the idea.
Croix
