Should I just suck this up?

[monkey_magic]

OK, this isn't easy for me to write bcas I respect police also but this is my situation.

I aparantly unlawfully entered a friends property, that's right a friends property. He wasn't home and I wasn't believed. Anyhow I was put in a mental institution. I preferred the hospital choice over the police station choice thinking I'll be in there for a couple weeks.

3 months later I came out overmedicated feeling like shite...misdiagnosed with a mental illness as a " safety net" seriously!!!!

3 months of my life where I couldn't work, and live my normal life. Inclosed in a small space, going crazy.

Should I just " suck this up". ?

[Peppermintbach]

Hi monkey_magic,

Aw you're welcome 🙂

You sound like you know how to take care of yourself and I like your sense of balance. I think resilience is a bit of everything- you can be emotional and still be resilient 😉 It's good that you're emotionally attuned and self aware.

I hope you enjoy resting up today and I hope you answer that artistic call. It beckons...

Kind thoughts,

Pepper xo

[Croix]

Dear Mrs D, MM and All~

A bungy jump -though terrifying - is surprisingly gentle, well at least for me. I did one in NZ years ago. The hard part was the actually jumping off the platform, I'd imaging some would chicken out at that stage, I v nearly did:)

Apart from getting mildly dunked the uncomfortable bit was having to take off spectacles and take out false teeth - not the best for photo opportunities I guess. Can't say how good it would be for backs Mrs D.

As for a bike ride MM, I'm sad to say my bike is in the shed. Up until a few years ago when my back started to give way I rode every day, started in the mid 60's. It's a different way to travel, gives you a different perspective too.

Good luck with the artwork

Croix

[monkey_magic]

It sounds like you've lived Croix!! Amazing & brilliant & wild & adventurous you are! And not to forget funny. I must do a bungy jump. I want to willingly walk/ jump off a cliff, I won't be buck bucking ( chickening out) at the last minute- one life!

[Peppermintbach]

Hi monkey_magic,

Your latest post made me smile. I like your adventurous spirit 🙂 You come across as so independent and headstrong; it reminds me a little of myself 😂

Kind thoughts,

Pepper xo

[Croix]

Dear MM~

I want to willingly walk/ jump off a cliff

If you ever do it I think you will be surprised. I suspect it might be harder than skydiving because in skydiving there is no real frame of reference other than the plane itself. Jumping of a bridge/cliff whatever instinct takes over. It is not 'intellectual' fear where you appreciate the danger and just have to face it, this is something physical - without thought even - the body just becomes reluctant all by itself. Wierd.

I hope you get to do it, you learn about yourself and have something extra to look back on.

Croix

[monkey_magic]

Hi pepper. Yep that's me. Very independent. But letting ppl in again lately. It's good to not have to rely on anyone for anything at times.

Croix, a fantastic response, I could just imagine that & I will definately have to give bungy a go, I mean you did & you're admirable. I'm just so full of compliments recently. I want that experience. You appear to be quite a daredevil.

[monkey_magic]

When it comes to my PTSD I think I've got it bcas I overdid it. It comes on when I'm stressed so the trick is to not be stressed I'm assuming. C how I go.

[Peppermintbach]

Hi monkey_magic,

Yup, I can usually pick up on the independent spirit as I have that in me too 😉

Ah PTSD...I don't have PTSD so I can't really comment on it and my knowledge on it is very basic. I suppose people get it for a whole range of reasons. Although I think trying to reduce your stress is wise either way.

All the best and hope you have minimal stress tonight 😉

Pepper xo

[monkey_magic]

Thankyou very much pepper,

I walked with a friend yday but still had anxiety & emotional stress. Im hoping to shed it today at the gym. I don't train as hard or as much as I used to & need to amp it up. I've also been in environments that make me feel this way.

Ive been applying for a heap of jobs recently, getting really into it.

Ive been with a couple guys too. Still have friendships with other guys. Love calms me I think. Spoke to my ex today, all good & solid there as well, no nastiness & I can be open with him but will never go back with him. What we have now is good. Ph contact & a spiritual connection.I must have an extra forgiving heart.

My life feels full. I do a lot. And I'm going to see where it goes with one of the guys. If it doesn't work I'm sure others will be around the corner sometimes. Going with the flow.

Now, to lose my emotional stress & anxiety.

How are u going health wise, life wise?

I love being free......

[Peppermintbach]

Hi monkey_magic,

I enjoyed reading your very uplifting and hopeful post. Thank you for sharing.

You sound very grateful and appreciative. There's a tone of contentment in your post even if you still have struggles. I like how determined you sound to manage/conquer your struggles.

Love is a wonderful feeling indeed. Yeah, take it as it comes. Just enjoy the moments with this guy and maybe try not to think too far ahead (but you know this already).

Thanks, actually I wanted to thank you. Do you recall an earlier post of yours where you commented on how you're very independent but you're starting to let people in again?

That really struck a chord with me...perhaps in a somewhat different context to you but I'm independent (to a fault at times) and your post acted as a reminder that, as much as I like to delude myself that I'm an island, I actually can't do this thing called "life" on my own. So thank you...

Long story short, I've made an appointment to update my MH plan and contacted a local clinic about their psych services.

Kind thoughts and a grateful thank you 🙂

Pepper xoxo