Should I just suck this up?

[monkey_magic]

OK, this isn't easy for me to write bcas I respect police also but this is my situation.

I aparantly unlawfully entered a friends property, that's right a friends property. He wasn't home and I wasn't believed. Anyhow I was put in a mental institution. I preferred the hospital choice over the police station choice thinking I'll be in there for a couple weeks.

3 months later I came out overmedicated feeling like shite...misdiagnosed with a mental illness as a " safety net" seriously!!!!

3 months of my life where I couldn't work, and live my normal life. Inclosed in a small space, going crazy.

Should I just " suck this up". ?

[monkey_magic]

Doc says I have acute stress and I agree with that diagnosis. So it looks like I'm being medicated for my stress. At the tribuneral hearing I was asked what I though. I said I thought it was laughable. I'm being medicated for acute stress.

Anyhow I went to the trampoline place and gym. I don't want to be stressed.

[Peppermintbach]

Hi monkey_magic,

Yeah, laughable indeed. Anyone in your position would have become stressed even if they weren't particularly stressed to begin with...I hear you...although I never knew that "acute stress" was a condition. I learn something new everyday 😉

Sending courage and kind thoughts. I admire your tenacity and spirit despite your many challenges.

Pepper xoxo

[monkey_magic]

Thanks pepper,

Ill even write a book. Anything to get the awareness out there. So many ppl r medicated that don't need to be, makes me angry. I've seen it in the institutions. The brain can heal itself. If you can't do it yourself then I agree with medication but if u can beat your condition without I'm all for that.

Im going behind their back getting docs advice, other opinions, doing research. I won't simply bow to them. In my heart I know what's right. I understand what's real & what's not. I listened to warrior by Havana brown today another good song, will put it in the song section. You have to stand up for what you believe. I scare ppl and cause ripples, it's what I do. I don't like b.s.

[Croix]

Dear MM~

Um, I'd like to say something but don't want you to think I'm defeatist or advising you not to fight. I worry you are putting all your thoughts and efforts into trying to beat the system, which is something hard to do. I agree second opinions can be very useful, particularly if you can find a GP or psych that will go to bat for you. Something like that could substantially shorten the period of enforced treatment.

However if it was me I'd pace myself, focus on other things too, I don't know what, you would have a better idea than me. Things not related to your battle, things that relax and amuse. What sort of comedy do you like?

I don't know why people should be scared of you - though I expect the silly ones are, you are determined that's true, but you are also warm.

I'm not being negative, so please don't see it that way, I'm suggesting a balance

OK?

Croix

[monkey_magic]

Night Croix,

Thanks for your welcomed input. I'm balanced. Today I went to the choc factory, gym, & trampoline place as well as the docs. I'm not trying to beat the system just wanting the truth to be known. Doc is guiding me as to what to do, he's the main doctor at the clinic.

Its hard for me to be on three different medications, one being an injection. I am sedated and tired and can feel sick. I feel sick about what they are doing to me. I won't bow down to them. I don't like them bcas of how they treat me. Why is the mental health department full of workers with mental illness? Must be a reason! That's a comedy in itself.

All I want is a voice and my situation to change. I know I might not get my way but I won't make it easy.

Ppl get scared because I'm a strong straight- shooter when I need to be just like I've been scared of very strong ppl, stronger than myself, but I think I can match them now. When I'm vulnerable or weak ppl walk all over me so my goal in life was to be a very strong person. I earnt it Croix.

[Peppermintbach]

Hi monkey_magic,

Lol. I'm completely unsurprised that people who work in MH often have their own MH struggles; people are often motivated by their own MH struggles to pursue a career in MH. A lot of psychologists, for example, have their own share of MH issues that began well before their careers began...

I'm glad to hear you're taking care of yourself and doing some fun, active things for yourself. You are a very resilient person indeed. I suppose life experiences shaped you; you have weathered many storms by the sounds of things...yet you're still here. Here's to your amazing survival.

Pepper xo

[monkey_magic]

Naw, thanks girl, means a lot. The trick is to bounce back. I do a lot of leisure things & put things out of my mind when I need to, I guess I am resilient, sometimes just an emotional woman though, other times a sensitive one. It can chip away at you, but I have a bounce back ability. I think we all can bounce back, even if we're not completely the same afterwards. You grow, & you become wise.

[monkey_magic]

I had to take a lot of time of working to be OK. In that time I swam in the ocean a lot, jogged through this forest, walked/ jogged through the bush, shopped, you name it. I see a lot of people that don't pay attention to their spiritual side and are spirituality dead. I had to do something about it.

I grew up being active, I suppose that has shaped me. I think its so important to feel alive.

I really want a motorcycle ride and sky dive recently. A way of letting go of things....I've done one sky dive & really craving another.

[Doolhof]

Hi Monkey and All,

Balance certainly is the key if we can obtain it. A healthy self-esteem certainly helps too. It is not always easy to find these things though. It is great you have goals and dreams Monkey, when we loose those, part of us dries up or stays dormant for too long.

Finding answers is certainly beneficial, fighting battles can be exhausting though, so hopefully you can find that balance and work towards your goals as well.

I like the idea of a sky dive. I keep telling my Dr I think a Bungy Jump will fix my back! That would be so exhilarating! Has anyone done that?

All the best to One and All

from Dools

[monkey_magic]

Mrs dools, will a bungy jump fix or worsen it I wonder? I'm guessing there's less impact with a skydive, perhaps do that?

Psychologists can be so helpful can't they. Mine helps me with why I do some of the things I do and explains it's PTSD. She even said she' d go to the police with me. Knowledge is power and she provides me with that, I'm assuming yours does as well.

I have felt exhausted lately so I'm currently resting....pondering on whether to have a trip. Rest at home is just as good as well sometimes.

Good nutrition is also vital. I do both though eat well & eat naughty.

Must do an artwork soon...my artistic streak is calling....