Should I just suck this up?

[monkey_magic]

OK, this isn't easy for me to write bcas I respect police also but this is my situation.

I aparantly unlawfully entered a friends property, that's right a friends property. He wasn't home and I wasn't believed. Anyhow I was put in a mental institution. I preferred the hospital choice over the police station choice thinking I'll be in there for a couple weeks.

3 months later I came out overmedicated feeling like shite...misdiagnosed with a mental illness as a " safety net" seriously!!!!

3 months of my life where I couldn't work, and live my normal life. Inclosed in a small space, going crazy.

Should I just " suck this up". ?

[monkey_magic]

Another guest, hello there... I'm interested to see what u think, I hope u write some more.

[monkey_magic]

I found this;

Much of what medical researches conclude in their studies is misleading,exaggerated, or flat out wrong.

...he charges that as much as 90% of the published medical information that doctors rely on is flawed.

[monkey_magic]

Dudes & dudettes,

Im up to my second glass while on medication. I'm sorry. I'm being risky. But that is all.

[Croix]

Dear MM~

I really like that new name, it reminds me of something my son used to watch in the 70's, at the beginning it always said

"And the nature of Monkey is irrepressible"

Criox

[monkey_magic]

Cheers Croix,

I ended up speaking to police yday and told him the truth over the phone ,that is that I didn't enter illegally and i dont have a mental illness. Today I'm seeing a psychiatrist under the order so I'll c what happens. Waiting ATM..

All I feel like I have today is some emotion.

[monkey_magic]

Feels as though I'm living in the fast lane, always on the go. Perhaps I'm not fully acknowledging all my feelings. If I've got depression I move, I do something. Feels like a light & dark rollercoaster in my mind, but I'd rather have it than medicate it. I want to experience what is real.

[monkey_magic]

The psychiatrist wouldn't listen to me, & wouldn't change, or stop my meds. Ooooo, they think they are so powerful. He was a dodgy, dark character, I did not like him at all! Got a bad feeling from him.This monkey isn't going to be repressed!! Thankyou Croix. She is going to see if she can get another opinion. I am being put into a box by a human. He is just that. He even said what even is PTSD, it is his way or the highway. I did nothing wrong.

[monkey_magic]

I have some words stemmed from latest experiences;

Painstaking

Demanding

Scrupulous

Studious

Methodical

White- glove

Laborious

[Doolhof]

Dear Monkey_magic,

Hi. I've just read some of what has been written here. You mentioned in one of your posts that you love the ocean, me too. I grew up very close to the beach and that has always been my comfort and restoring place.

Years ago I bought a C.D. of ocean sounds with music. Would something like that help you to feel relaxed and calm? For ages it helped me to fall asleep at night.

I'm really sorry to read your story. I hope you are able to find another psychiatrist who will listen and help you. I have seen a few psychologists, the guy I am seeing now is helping me heaps, and I have only seen him twice with the visits being a month apart.

I feel like I have finally been unburdened by stuff from the past and can now learn how to face today. For decades I have been at a standstill, maybe too fearful to face the day or tomorrow, finding a sense of disconnection as a way of coping.

Wishing you all the best and all the help you need to move forward.

Cheers to you.

[monkey_magic]

Hi Mrs Dools,

I wouldn't mind one of those cds. It'd good to hear it has helped and awesome that ur feeling unburdened. I use lifeline a lot or write stuff down to unburden & I'm seeing a psychologist tomorrow. I've also got a psychiatrist that can give a second opinion but it doesn't mean I can get out of the order. I can't believe I'm medicated for something I don't have- I know myself really well. They r going off what I experienced yrs ago. The lawyers need to battle in court.

Cheers to freedom & connection. Face your fears & live your dreams since I'm a monkey that loves to dream.