Sad musings

[Peppermintbach]

Hi everyone,

I'm not sure what to say other than I'm just on edge, cranky and sad at the same time. I'm aware of helplines, doctors, mental health plans, mindfulness, CBT, smiling mind app, distractions, doing things we love, etc, etc. I feel as though I've hit a wall...

I know that I want to make some sort of change or changes but I'm unsure of the nature of this change. A general feeling of unease. When you're deeply unhappy but you're not even 100% sure why.

Seriously, this all probably seems kind of vague and I'm not sure what I'm hoping to achieve here, and I know that no one has the answer except for me (whatever that is...throws hands up in frustration).

All I can say is I think life is difficult and often painful. It's the daily, in-between moments that I find the hardest. Sometimes I wonder if brief moments of reprieve is as good as it gets.

Pepper

[demonblaster]

You're such a love xx

[Just Sara]

Sigh...

I'm so glad to see you back Pepper. Reading your words I felt a little emotional. I totally get where you're coming from as it grasped me for a while too. There are times we just need to take a break from ourselves.

As DB says, take all the time you need my sweet girl. I'll be here waiting patiently for your return heart of hearts...

Hugz, smiles, love, kindness and encouragement coming your way...

Sez xoxox

[startingnew]

Peps xoxox

[demonblaster]

Hey lovely/s (( soul ))

Hope your days are stronger and brighter

[monkey_magic]

Hey pepper,

Stopping by to wish u well today. You might not be feeling the best so I wanted to offer support like you have for me. Hoping if you're going through bad times it's as quick as possible and that the good happens again. Sunshine after the storm...( I could be on the wrong track, if I am just let me know).

Lots of love, flowers & chocolate, monkey magic xox

P.s ..if i was a magician I'd wave my stick and you'll be feeling 100% again..if only huh.

[Peppermintbach]

Hi DB, Sez, Little Wings, monkey_magic plus everyone else;

A huge thank you for all your encouraging posts. I really appreciate the love, support and patience ❤️ As I said before, sometimes I’ll go back and read posts again for some encouragement 🙂

Sorry, I will get back to each of you individually. It’s something that I like to do and is important to me. But for now, I’m just easing back into things...

My psych expressed that he was concerned about how I was withdrawing from the people around me lately (i.e. in the offline realm). But that’s just how I cope; I tend to turn inwards more rather than outwards during difficult times.

Some people invited me to lunch earlier this week at a volunteer gig that I have...I politely declined and purposely took a late lunch as I knew the lunch rooms were quieter during the later hours. I didn’t have the desire or interest in making small talk or to make jokes. Sometimes physically being around other people is something that I find very draining.

Although I did find solace in a stranger’s canine companion and a bouquet of fragrant flowers 🙂 There really is something very magical about dogs. Many dogs just let us “be” and are so emotionally attuned.

Sending love and gratitude (especially as I know some of you are struggling too).

Talk again soon ❤️

Pepper xoxoxoxoxoxo

[demonblaster]

((( soul )))

Depression makes us go into ourselves.

In your own time sweet only if you want to reply individually which is lovely but no pressure hun

Thanks for reply sorry you're doing it hard darl, not having a good run are you

Care xx

[startingnew]

My pepper girl ❤❤❤❤

Butterfly wings is sittting on your shoulder and despite resting i am watching over you ❤❤

[demonblaster]

Peps I'm standing in front of you, smiling and we're having an amazing long no rush hug.
Feel the energy moving from & into eachother.
When you need a magic hug, feel this one darl it's a ripper

Something happens with good hugs. Fact. An energy thing.

Instigated an amazing one other night with bloke. He felt it too. Yeebahhhh was good chooks but yeah not happening. pfff.

No need for separate reply darlin just know I really do care about you xx

[swtpotato]

there are some real magical hugs happening here

I would like to add another. I'm told I'm very huggable.

I read about your experience with that dog on some other thread. Beautiful. Their souls really do shine out. I have a very cuddly boxer puppy who brings out the strongest feelings of affection in me than anyone else. He is a year old and huge but still likes to try and fit in my lap and fall asleep.

I'm glad that dog could pierce through your numbness, even just for a little bit.

Hope you direct your compassionate and kind words to yourself sometimes. You need it, and definitely definitely deserve it.

sending you some of my recently aquired pep 😉 (there's not much but I think I'm on my way to a more sustainable supply)

m