Sad musings

[Peppermintbach]

Hi everyone,

I'm not sure what to say other than I'm just on edge, cranky and sad at the same time. I'm aware of helplines, doctors, mental health plans, mindfulness, CBT, smiling mind app, distractions, doing things we love, etc, etc. I feel as though I've hit a wall...

I know that I want to make some sort of change or changes but I'm unsure of the nature of this change. A general feeling of unease. When you're deeply unhappy but you're not even 100% sure why.

Seriously, this all probably seems kind of vague and I'm not sure what I'm hoping to achieve here, and I know that no one has the answer except for me (whatever that is...throws hands up in frustration).

All I can say is I think life is difficult and often painful. It's the daily, in-between moments that I find the hardest. Sometimes I wonder if brief moments of reprieve is as good as it gets.

Pepper

[demonblaster]

(((( xx ))))

[Wilma1]

Hi Pepper, thanks for your kind words, much appreciated. I'm dropping by this morning hoping to say the right words, so bear with me. Your post to SN yesterday was everything anyone could possible offer. Brain freeze !!!!! Theirs so much I wish I could get out of my brain and post, but really, I just want to let you know your value here is not unnoticed. W

[startingnew]

I agree Wilma Pepper writes some very beautiful things. She means alot to me in the short time ive come to know her

oh heyy peps ❤❤😚

[Pysis]

Hi pepper

how are you today?

Sorry I haven't been around that much.

sending hugs and love

Nath xoxxo

[demonblaster]

Hey lovelies

Read back a few, hope you're doin ok hun

Take biggly care

Hey did some biggy hills today, feel like Mrs Hercules, OMG there's muscle under it all 😄 ... never enough oxygen on those suckers (Y) all good

Yeah darl mostly I have very good relations with people, have a lot of love so lucky, it's just those bloody donks that must be reading a target on my head saying go for it. Usually give it back but they can't help themselves, one day it's not gunna bother me. Still climbing the ladder babe xx All good though 🙂

[Cesca1557]

hi pepper,

how have you been the last few days? hope youre doing okay
very exciting about your new print! what does it look like if you dont mind me asking?

im sure it looks very lovely up on your bedroom wall 🙂
xx

- c

[Peppermintbach]

Hi lovely people,

A grateful thank you and call out to Butterfly Wings, Wilma, DB, Nath and Cesca plus everyone else who has been supporting me 🙂

I will post individual replies over the next few days. It really does mean a lot that you guys post. I know that I always say this but I'm highly aware that you all have your own problems and hurts yet still put in the time for me. Thank you.

Words sometimes run dry when I'm hurting so I've little to say right at this point...I did, however, want to share this:

I have been mesmerised by Hozier's 2014 album by the same name "Hozier."

I will issue a gentle caution, some of his lyrics might be a tad triggering for some of you so please approach with caution.

Sedated is probably the song that I relate to most on the whole album. But I like the entire album, which doesn't happen too often. It gave me chills...

Sending love and gratitude,

Pepper xoxo

[startingnew]

hugs Big sis

you dont have to hurt alone

xoxox

will take a listen but maybe not yet jsut in case.

[monkey_magic]

I love hozier, thankyou thankyou for that song, listening now....

[Wilma1]

Hi Pepper, I'm off to listen to Hozier, but just want to sit here for a while, you sound low. I know words don't help, but knowing people care does, so here we are, sitting, caring, and listening. 💕💕💕W