Sad musings

[Peppermintbach]

Hi everyone,

I'm not sure what to say other than I'm just on edge, cranky and sad at the same time. I'm aware of helplines, doctors, mental health plans, mindfulness, CBT, smiling mind app, distractions, doing things we love, etc, etc. I feel as though I've hit a wall...

I know that I want to make some sort of change or changes but I'm unsure of the nature of this change. A general feeling of unease. When you're deeply unhappy but you're not even 100% sure why.

Seriously, this all probably seems kind of vague and I'm not sure what I'm hoping to achieve here, and I know that no one has the answer except for me (whatever that is...throws hands up in frustration).

All I can say is I think life is difficult and often painful. It's the daily, in-between moments that I find the hardest. Sometimes I wonder if brief moments of reprieve is as good as it gets.

Pepper

[Just Sara]

Thanks hun; I'll go there now. xo

[Peppermintbach]

Hi lovely people,

A grateful thank you for all the very empathic posts of support 🙂

I had my appointment today for my MH Plan. Long story short, my GP no longer works at the centre so I'm now seeing a different doctor. It seems like this year, my whole med and allied health team is undergoing an overhaul (lol).

This new GP seemed nice enough- approachable and personable. She went through the usual drill with forms, background, the good old K10 (I'm admittedly always skeptical about those 10 questions...always have been...it's hard for me not to fill one in without rolling my eyes like a 3 year old), etcetera, etcetera.

She wants me to go to pathology for blood work, which I will do tomorrow. Sigh...I also signed a release paper for my former psychologist to send her my records/history (that should be, uh, colourful reading...to say the very least lol).

I'm seeing her again in roughly 2 weeks time as she wants to see me fortnightly to monitor my MH progress in conjunction with my psych visits. I have to hand it to her for being thorough...

Quirky- it's nice of you to visit 🙂 Thanks for your support- I appreciate it a lot 💜💜

I'm glad you'll be checking out Thunder; it's a pretty upbeat song. Kinda bold and high energy...not sure if you will like it but I like the sassiness of the song. The song is a little feisty- like me. lol!

Sez- I always appreciate your visits especially when I know you have your own struggles. Thank you greatly...for your love and well wishes. I think of you often and am sending kind thoughts your way.

Love you; heart of hearts, forever and always 💞 💞

Butterfly Wings- I know you've been having a very rough time yet you still manage to swing by with well wishes. You're very caring and generous- beautiful qualities that we all adore in you. Sending you love too ❤️❤️

Loving thoughts to all,

Pepper xoxoxoxoxo

[Just Sara]

I feel like a proud mamma bear! (Smiling)

I've been hanging out for you and SN to post about your visits. (Still smiling and taking a deep sigh of relief) You did it...you go girrrrl!

There 'does' seem to be an air of change around you eh? (Smiles) I hope you filled in the K10 honestly hmm...? Sorry, I'm on top of the moon for you. I know you'll do everything you can to help them help you. 🙂

So happy you've finally made the move as it's been very long between visits. Hope your new GP's just what the Dr ordered. (Pun...learning from the best eh Pepper?) lol

Sigh...going now. Pow!! To infinity and beyond!!! Luv's ya...

Sez xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

[startingnew]

Dear Pepper


this is a really great start well done! Sometimes you need a change up. Fresh eyes if you will.
Blood work is another standard practice. I had to do the same thing to check thyroid fenctions and deficienes etc to see if anyting was contributing to the way I was feeling.


Good this gp is sounding great Peps, monitorsing is great and since she made it fortnightly it wont become to overwhelming and she wants to be in your support system too. This is a good thing as long as she doesnt make you uncomfortable.
Love you lots too xoxox and thats what we do at BB. We help each other good and bad xoxox

[Peppermintbach]

Dearest Mama Bear (Sez),

Thank you for the incredible support! What an uplifting, caring response- you made me smile 🙂 I appreciate you immensely.

Yeah, my username is one cheeky pun so I'm glad you're practising your puns too. Lol. Yes, well, early days but this new GP does seem very thorough in her approach, which is a plus.

"Change"? Perhaps...evolving maybe. I suppose that I was just getting sick of fighting myself; it's very exhausting fighting with oneself, day in, day out.

I no longer knew how to deal with myself anymore, which was basically what prompted me to seek professional help again. Something akin to "I no longer know how to deal with me. So I'll let someone else deal with me instead."

Right now, I'm really tired. Felt kinda sad last night but that's pretty much the norm for me (same old, same old). Have some thinking to do...

Love you; to the Milky Way and back (and as much as music).

Pepper xoxoxoxo

[Peppermintbach]

Lovely Butterfly Wings,

I appreciate all your support and kindness. Thank you...

Yeah, fresh eyes indeed. It will be interesting to see how things go. Oh yeah, the usual drill with the blood work. Speaking of which, heading to pathology soon. Then the first thing I'm doing afterwards is getting coffee 😉

Love you loads,

Pepper xoxoxoxo

[quirkywords]

Pepper,

I think it is often hard staring with a new doctor and having to go over the same things. I hope you don't have to wait too one at pathology and enjoy your coffee afterwards.

Quirky x

[Just Sara]

Good morning Amazeballs!

I'm having my morning coffee with you chatting with my pooch who's been sick for the past couple of days. He sends his love too...

Quote: 'If you're sad, add more lipstick and attack!' - Coco Chanel

While I was in hospital in Feb, my niece gave me a daily calendar pad with quotes on each page. It's called; 'Wild Words for Wild Women'. I saw the above and thought of you. 🙂

I used to have a bit of wild in me; it's something my nieces admired. Some of it rubbed off on them which I love. Are you a wild woman? If not, would you like to be? 🙂

I used to throw great parties, many of which were themed. For my 50th it was 70's night with around 50 people. What a blast! I created a pair of ABBA pants with long glittered pleats at the outer of each leg. My wild woman Aunt wore a mini skirt...she was 65 at the time.

So, my coffee needs a top up and this sunshine's very inviting. I hope your blood work comes back positive. So proud of you for taking this big step which I know was a challenge.

Have a lovely day!

Booyar!

Love always...Sez xoxox

[Peppermintbach]

Hi wonderful people,

Quirky- I so appreciate the well wishes. Thank you.

Yes, it is a bit of a transition...rest assured, once I get used to this dr, my argumentative streak will surface 😉 And yes, I did get my coffee afterwards...

Sez- aw your poor dog. I hope he is on the mend but I'm sure you're giving him plenty of TLC. Tell sick doggie that I'm sending my love 🙂

Thanks for keeping me company over coffee. Good company...

Tame is overrated, I say bring on the wild. Lol. I don't know if I'm "wild" or not but I'm definitely very independent and headstrong (for better or for worse).

Your 65 year old aunt is the kind of person I aspire to be when I'm her age 😉 I love her sassy attitude. So fierce!

Your 50th sounds amazing. I bet you partied all night (and morning)...dusk till dawn (Butterfly will get the reference lol). I bet you still have a bit of "Wild" in you...

LOVE the Chanel quote. She was ahead of her time, that's for sure.

Speaking of Chanel, how I love fashion. I know some people perceive it as superficial- and it is, to an extent- but I see fashion as a form of art. To me, it wasn't about acquiring things or even the brands, it was about the design and concepts. I used to pore over Vogue magazine in high school. My favourite was French Vogue.

Anyway, I'm rambling again....I've had my blood work but the results aren't out yet. Love you always too...

Loving thoughts to all,

Pepper xoxo

[startingnew]

Good afternoon Peps
how are you going?
Blood work takes about a week to come back in so youll ge those at your next gp visit im sure theres nothing to worry about 🙂


I know doing all these things arent easy for you and its really brave of you to be ASKING and ACCEPTING help. So good on you. Im really proud of you.
I love you load too


sending lots of comforting sister hugs
xoxox


PS I got that refernece straight away. Such a powerful meaning xox




goodness me Sez! Your on a role today. (see all numerous thread shes been stirring people up on today lol) Its really good to see you happy and 'wild' again. Your spiriti is still intact I see. Its really good to see you around the traps abit more and in good spirits. lots of love to you xoxox




Hello Quirky
hope your doing ok too 🙂

sending some hugs to you too xoxox