Sad musings

[Peppermintbach]

Hi everyone,

I'm not sure what to say other than I'm just on edge, cranky and sad at the same time. I'm aware of helplines, doctors, mental health plans, mindfulness, CBT, smiling mind app, distractions, doing things we love, etc, etc. I feel as though I've hit a wall...

I know that I want to make some sort of change or changes but I'm unsure of the nature of this change. A general feeling of unease. When you're deeply unhappy but you're not even 100% sure why.

Seriously, this all probably seems kind of vague and I'm not sure what I'm hoping to achieve here, and I know that no one has the answer except for me (whatever that is...throws hands up in frustration).

All I can say is I think life is difficult and often painful. It's the daily, in-between moments that I find the hardest. Sometimes I wonder if brief moments of reprieve is as good as it gets.

Pepper

[Peppermintbach]

Morning Butterfly Wings (waves to Sez, Quirky & anyone else reading),

Always lovely to see you here.

Thank you...

Ah well, I haven't given the blood work too much thought. If anything, it felt like a mildly irritating "chore" to me if that makes sense 😉 lol

I'm plodding along. The blues have a nice, firm hold on me but that's old news in my world.

I received some bad news (nothing to do with the blood work just to be clear- results aren't even out yet) so that has been upsetting. Just going to have to try to get through work even though I would much prefer to mope around in bed for at least the next 3 days. Life huh...

Love you,

Pepper xoxo

[startingnew]

Good morning peps ❤❤

Im sorry to hear you've had some bad news. We are here if you want to talk about it. If not we are right here for you anyway just chilling in your corner 💌💌

Love you heaps

BW

[quirkywords]

Pepper

Sorry to hear about your bad news. I think there should be allotted to time to mope if one needs it . Hope your day improves.

Thinking of you.

Love Quirky

[Moonstruck]

Sorry to hear Peppermint....anything we can do, we are right here. sending love.....xo

[demonblaster]

Hey Peps 🙂

Only read your OP & couple other replies so far but just wanted to be here for you too as you often are for me and others too.

I'll be able to keep up more by reading as I usually do the last few posts on thread so for now know I care and am also by your side darl 🙂

take good care lovely Peps

[Peppermintbach]

Aw thank you guys ❤️

You are the best!

Thank you for the incredible support 🙂

It honestly made my day when I came home and found those beautiful messages. This is especially- and I've said it before- when I realise every single person who reponds has their own set of struggles and problems yet takes the time to check in on me. Thank you.

Butterfly Wings- you're such an empathic, caring person. I'm very grateful and fortunate for your love and support.

Quirky- thanks for validating my moping. Your caring response means a lot.

Moon- aw...short and sweet message but I felt the deep kindness in it. Thank you to you too.

DB- I so appreciated your visit and message. Thank you for being in my corner (as I am in yours too).

Grateful heart,

Pepper xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

[demonblaster]

Hey darls & all

pleasure & glad to be here for you too as you are for so many here and myself.

Been slowly reading back from beginning & also I usually try a page or last few posts on threads so can get in the loop.

Hope your blood results are ok darl if not then easily fixable

Sorry you had bad news hun, ((( safe big cyber hugs ))) & that you're down.

You have a lot of caring friends here hun, we're your pillars to lean on.

much appreciation for the lovely person you are.
Hope today has some improve

[Cesca1557]

hey pepper,

ive been away for about a week and havent had reception or internet for a few of those days so havent been able to check on anyone.
but just wanted to quickly pop in and see how you are doing!
thinking of you

[startingnew]

hi Peps

we want to be here to support you

lots of love and hugs xoxox

how are you feeling today?

you got up out of bed today- remember thats something to be proud of.

you went to work- another thing

look at that 2 things that arent easy for you, yet you still do

do you mind me asking what sort of work do you do?

[Just Sara]

Hi Hun;

Not surprised you're out of sorts. How did your psych appt go? Is this 'episode' due to that? You're pretty ballsy to face your first visit in yrs, so no pressure from me, so take all the time you need. If it's the wrong date...then my face is red. What's new?!!

I'm sorry I haven't been around, I'm posting on my thread later to explain. Need sleep first. I'm in your corner as always, and have love to give a plenty. I smile when I write things like that, I hope you do too while reading.

Just know I'm here, I care and await your return patiently.

Love you to infinity and beyond!! Pow!

Sez xoxox