I was just about to retire for the night when I saw you'd responded.
"Meh" isn't what adults say. Your child's the one running the show, not the adult. I wrote;
'A newfound lease on life beckons then sad musings, birds are circling, sirens are calling, tears are falling and questions are being asked; an awakening is on the horizon'
All this didn't happen this morning; it's over several days. Little Pepper was the one to instil a reclusive MO. Adult Pepper's sick of it!
The adult is asking her to come out and play. This means getting her/you out of her shell and enjoying life instead of avoiding it. The tiredness gave the 'child' an opportunity to release the reigns, not the other way round. You've got it back to front.
As a little person, you controlled your environment, or at least what you thought was control. In essence, you/she was running away from the reality of that situation, which btw, doesn't exist anymore.
I know this seems confusing, but if you think about it, children are manipulative little buggers; adults negotiate, plan, assess. You're beginning to question your own behaviour.
"Am I acting like I did when I was little?" It's a simple question. "Does a functional young adult of my intellect shy away from challenge and excitement?"
I'm onto you little Pepper! Ha! The birds are circling 🙂 The other day you revelled in 'living' life to the fullest. That's what normal adults do, they plan and assess what's possible. Children don't like change, it upsets the status quo and makes them feel insecure, especially if they're not in control.
The tears? Little girls cry when they're scared. Change is scary.
Developing and creating a functional adult within isn't easy. The first step's identifying the behaviour and accepting the child's in charge. No-one wants to admit they're acting like a kid ok. The next step is taking over and changing your usual (comfortable) behaviours and actions. One tiny step at a time...
I love you my sweet, I hope I haven't been too in-your-face or disrespectful.
Sez xoxo
