Not in a good space

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

It's like a feeling just bubbling up to the surface. It's panicky and disgusting and I dont' know what to do with it. There's no thoughts associated with it. It's a feeling. A really gross one. I called the Suicide Call Back service. I didn't find them helpful. What do you do? What helps you?

[Paw Prints]

Hello Katy,

Lass you are not going through this alone. Let it out lass, have a cry, smash some crockery, whatever you need. I'm here for you if you want to talk or not. Please try & ring one of the helplines, even if you can't find the words for the tears, they will still listen & offer you the support you need.

Sending you the gentlest of hugs & ahand to hold

Paws

[Hanna3]

Came back to check on you - dear lady Paws has put it better than I can. So sorry you are feeling so very bad. Gentle warm fluffy puppy hugs from Sam... you hang onto Storm and cry it out Katy dear... we're all thinking of you... hugs hugs hugs xxx

[iamanxiety]

hi Katy,

just thinking about you. come have a chat when you feel up to it . sorry my post are short and misspelled I'm using a cracked phone not my pc . time for an upgrade I think lol

Andrew

[monkey_magic]

Hi Katyonthehamsterwheel,

I've had some pretty horrendous Google searches myself.

I hope you're feeling a little better if not that's ok too.

Just wanted you to know I'm also here for you rain, hail or shine.

We can't always have good days.

I remember my dark days very well and had to journal and cry it out to get better.

You're not alone.

[Guest_4643]

Are you alright Katy?

Is everyone else alright too?

I'm here for all of you if anyone needs it - someone to talk to about anything or just to listen. If anyone is interested.

Love and hugs to all. I hope you're OK Katy, please take care of yourself.

Tayla

[Paw Prints]

Hello Katy,

Just popping in to let you know you're in my thoughts. Please don't feel you must reply.

I'm sitting with you in spirit lass & giving you the gentlest of hugs.

Paws

[Hanna3]

Hi Katy,

Just wanted to say hello and thinking of you. No need for you to answer. But when I log onto BB and there are no messages that show a little hamster wheel, or Storm's happy face, the world feels a bit more lonely without you. You are missed! You help make the world a little brighter - your lovely nature shines through your comments here. Come back when you are up to it - I miss our chats about books or dogs or whatever! Gentle wishes... xxx

[Guest_4643]

I hope you're alright Katy.

Hanna and everyone else is right, and we're all thinking of you.

It's OK if you need time to yourself and you don't feel like coming on the forums or have the time. Self care is important and it's not selfish, remember that, same with everyone here.

Please just take care of yourself and be safe. I send my love and hugs, I hope you're OK.

Love and hugs, and kind wishes.

Tayla x

[Junior412]

Hi Katy, my good friend.

I really hope you're ok. My heart sank when I read your post regarding your google search. I remember a few weeks ago when I began my journey on this thread, that my google search was similar to what you described. It brought me here. I'm so fortunate that I found you, and other wonderful people here. If it wasn't for people like you who've shone the light and guided they way with your kind words, thoughts and wishes, I don't know where I'd be now. Probably not typing you this message.

I can only repeat what other wonderful people have said here, such as Hanna, Paws, Andrew and of course my beautiful friend Tayls, that we are all here for each other, and right now we're batting for you Katy. We respect your wish for some space right now, but be mindful that I and many others that love you are here waiting for you with open arms and wanting to help you. As I've said in the past, all of our situations are different, I can't even begin to comprehend what you've been through with your personal and physical losses, but I know I'll be here 24/7 for you. We've all learnt here that no matter how trivial we may think our day to day problems are here, we are all here to support one another. I've sought strength here from this threat, and I'm sure others will agree.

Believe me, days on the calendar such as Valentines Day, Christmas Day, New Years Eve and even my own birthday are days I dread and try to hide from.

My love and hugs go out to you, and others here who need it right now.

Your friend and supporter,

Simon

[Junior412]

Gotta love spellcheck. I meant to say "I've sought strength here from this thread, not threat!