Not coping after disclosure

[startingnew]

Please help me. Im really struggling.

last night i disclosed something that ive kept with me for 2 years now. Im already struggling with ptsd anxiety and depression but the event that i disclosed also comes under ptsd.

I rang a hotline and the first time in 2 years ive spoken about it and im so embarrassed and ashamed. I hate myself and blame myelf for it. And im terriffied! !

[Ggrand]

Hello Startingnew,

Oh no little butterfly I so hope your toes not broken....Have you had it xrayed yet...

Its a relief to me and probably others here that you are car safe.

.Just sitting quietly with you sweetheart and really hoping that your toe isn't broken......

sleep well,little butterfly 🦋, I hope tomorrow give you some light..

Love and hugs...💜🤗.

Grandy...🕊🕊🕊

love and hugs

[demonblaster]

Ahh darling when will it stop. Sweety I'm a strong believer in that things don't stay the same because time doesn't stop and brings on change. I'd have no problem if you said I'm full of s..awdust 😄 with your run of rot, but dear SLD I see some cracks in my 🔮 (no it's not broken 😁) and they are

• You're problem teeth in near future will be removed

• Your hand's slowly improving. Go easy sweets

• Your toe (oh darlin 🤗) will improve

• Hoping new meds make positive improves
• Extra work reducing financial stress
• Crocheting (good on ya sweet soz forgot to say ☺) good distraction and interest
• You NEVER give up little trooper. Admire that in you ❤👍

And of course you're so very deeply appreciated cared and loved here. Rl too I'd think but sadly not shown enough

You matter dear SLD

Love and friendship hun always🤗😚💗🦋

[startingnew]

Hi guys thanks so much for msgs. Har had 2 very big days and tomorrow seems the same 😣 prob will head to drs tomorrow. The swelling hasnt gone down at all and is pretty painful but not sure if thats the wound or not so will just get checked in the am or arvo.

Will come back tomorrow when ive got more time to write proper responses ❤❤❤

[Peppermintbach]

Hi lovely Butterfly Wings (and all),

Things sound rather hectic and stressful...take your time with replies. No rush, just when you’re good and ready 🙂

The swelling must be excruciating, and it’s disappointing that it hasn’t gone down. Good luck with your GP appointment

Love always...

”Dusk till dawn”

Pepper xoxo

[startingnew]

Hi everyone thank you so much for your msgs and your patience with my responses! Ive been so slack im sorry.


I cant bring myself to go to the drs even though I know I probably should. I just cant seem to get into the make an appointment gear! I did have a look but my gps arent avaliable till late next week, I could see one gp tomorrow but I cant because ill need to pick up the kids and the medical centre near me is the one that stuffed up my hand so I really dont want to go there again though by the looks of it I might not have much choice... its not a tender now but the bruising and swelling look dreadful! Its still tender and sore in some places or if pressure if put on it but can walk abit more now.


Im pretty tired, like lethargic tired. Not sure if im worn down or if its maybe the new meds... I brought some multicoloured yarn today and plan to make a blanket so thatll keep my occupied. I also had a big cleanout of my shed so have quite a few things to donate, sell or put up for free but they pick it up from my house if its heavy.

love and hugs and many butterfly wishes to you all xoxoxoxoxoxo

[Ggrand]

Hello Startingnew,

Awwe your toe still sounds like it is very sore, more likely you will loose your toe nail, so I really think that if you possibly can Little Butterfly to try and get it checked out....

sitting with you tonight little 🦋 butterfly...🍭🍩🍫🍫🍫..Some midnight snacks..Shhh...Shhh..It's our secret...I quickly 🚜 from mine...Do you want a ride, it's fun..

Sleep well little butterfly, You to gentle Peppy, and you to Deebi, oh and Sara, and Lici, and everyone else...I hope tomorrow is a day filled with peace and happies for you all.

Grandy..

[Peppermintbach]

Hi Butterfly Wings (and a wave to all),

I feel there’s nothing to be “sorry” for. It’s okay...no apology needed. Don’t even stress about it 😉

You so sound very run down. Your injured toe seems very painful. I’m glad you can at least hobble around a little...some movement is still some movement...

I think knitting (crocheting?) a blanket is a great idea. It sounds like an excellent creative outlet as well as a way to keep your mind and hands preoccupied 🙂 I hope you enjoy it.

I must admit that I’m slightly worried about you clearing things out of your shed, considering your recent injuries. But I’m glad at least heavy items will be picked up by others...

Sending warm cuddles, Much love and maybe a blue butterfly your way (wouldn’t that be nice?)

Grandy: thank you, lovely one. I hope you managed to get some sleep too 🙂 Hugs to you...

Love always...

”Dusk till dawn”

Pepper xoxo

P.S. I saw a beautiful white butterfly yesterday. I was outside and it flew over my head and made a few circles near me 🙂

Lovely butterfly instantly lifted my spirits for a moment. I felt like it was you keeping me company and sending your blessings.

Thank you also for the caring post on my thread. As always, I love seeing your Wings flutter across those pages xoxo

[startingnew]

Thansk guys

will come back tomorrow. i started to read and respond but i cant help but blankly stare despite alot of sleep last night 😕 maybe tomorrow will be better and less blurry visioned.

need to ring and get optomestrist appt. not sure if its med side effects now as its not getting better and some days its worse so time to get a checkup.. plus the dreadful toothache is back and still ahvent been to drs about my foot. not sure if thats contributing to why i feel so sick or if its something else. im falling apart from the inside 😞

thanks for caring my lovlies. xoxoxox will go to bed early and try again tomorrow!

[Ggrand]

Hello Startingnew..

I hope your okay little butterfly 🦋, maybe a trip to the optometrist is a good idea...Also sweet little butterfly you need to get you toe checked out as well, just concern for you...maybe stress making you ill, please sweetheart when you able too please try hard to make a gp appointment..

I’m sitting quietly with you tonight..thinking of you....🌸🌺 ..

love and caring hugs..🤗💜..

Grandy....

Grandy....

[Peppermintbach]

Hi beautiful Butterfly Wings (and a wave to all),

A very squishy hug from me...so many physical health issues. The blurred vision does sound like something that probably needs looking into so I think seeing an optometrist is a good idea.

Holding your hand and giving it gentle, reassuring squeezes. Please...there’s no rush with replies. I feel just focus on yourself and your health first because posts can wait...

Sending lots of love and even more big sis hugs...

”Dusk till dawn”

Pepper xoxo